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i can't do it anymore
i graduated from a school that i absolutely hated! it was a total disaster for me, and i had to go to therapy afterwards because it had a lot of bad side effects in the long run. I was treated very badly by students and faculty alike, and I just don't want to remember it or be any part of it. i suffered from an eating disorder in which I am still in therapy for, partly because i felt so out of touch with my life, and like i had no control over anything in my life. i was very close, if not, already, depressed. they told me last year, in therapy, that they were going to help me get through the year, and that when i got to college, everything was going to be so much better, and i was going to feel like a free person. so, i figured that i would feel great. i got a job, and i was going to school and everything was ok.
but, that was during the summer ( i took some classes over the summer). but, now in the fall, the work schedule and the school schedule are way too much! i don't have a day where i get a break from everything. when i'm not at school, i'm work, when i'm not at work, i'm at the gym, and that's all i do. i have not gone out since sophmore year of high school, because then i was depressed. now, i feel like i'm getting depressed again, because i don't feel any type of freedom that they were telling me about.
i can't quit my job because my mom just lost hers and all the money that i get is not for me. I haven't used ANY of my money for me. it has all been for her and for paying bills, expenses, insurances, phone bills, etc. I don't think I can do it anymore... and I don't know what to do. I'm really stressed and at this point, I'm crying. I'm tired, and I never have a break. I can't remember the last time i went shopping, or enjoyed the day and went to go do my hair and nails. now, every single day is pressed with time, and getting to places by a certain time, and if i don't go to another place at a certain time, then it's all ruined my entire schedule. i can't anymore. i'm only 18 and my hair is falling from stress.... someone please give me some advice!
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maybe you can talk to your boss of your theripist for a note to not work saturdays or go to the gym on saturdays take that day for your self. depression is tough. I have been through that. the medication they put me on got me real aggervated i felt like chopping someones head off lol. i couldnt sleep, but was afrid of sleeping pills. i was a mess. i also had a young child, a bad relationship that is what pushed me to depression when that relationship ended. i was in high school taking 17 classes. only time i slept was during the day when my son took a nap i was up all night with school work. take things easy you have your whole life. your mother really needs to look for a job. and i am not blaming her. i no how hard it is to find one. i have been searching for one since june i have applied at about every place in town and no luck. find some things you like to do.. maybe shoot some hoops? im not sure if you are a male or female.. but drawing? reading? working on something bulding something. anything? destract your self with something you like.
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hey.. well im going to be honest with you and tell you that i have no idea what your going through, sorry, but if i were you, im pretty sure i would cut some classes and take them next semester or something durring summer break.. i dont know about were you live but here we can do that... im only takeing 3 classes in college. its so much easier to handel.. i also have a job and woking 6 hours a day adn 3 classes gives me plenty off free time.. and as for the gym... i would also cut that down too 3 times a week or two. help you mom find a job.. tell her u need money for you too it cant be all her.. i know it sounds selfish now but you are a student in college, now is all about us haveing fun.. if we dont now then when? :p i hope i helped.. and remember to smile and lagh alot. its good for the soul :)
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