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Hard to explain.. am i crazy for this?
Ok, so i know this question is is totally off the wall, but have you ever seen RENT? Well if you have you know who anthony rapp is. in his book, he mentions a freind that had and died of aids. He also mentions that this freind wanted aids... i forget why, but it was a really good reason.
is it bad that i kind of want a disease that i would die from? its not like i would go try to get aids or something, but im just wondering is this crazy to think like that? to want a disease? i mean we are all gunna die someday, so why not die from a disease????
What are your thoughts on it?
thanks. sorry if this is a totally random and weird question.
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Well, it is certainly bizarre.
I'd rather die peacefully in my own bed of old age.
I'd rather be around to watch my children grow and eventually go out and make lives of their own.
I'd rather sit on my porch and watch my grandkids run and play.
I don't think this way of thinking is wrong, really, but it certainly isn't my way of thinking.
See, there is so much to get out of life that terminal illness can take away from you.
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Actually I have never seen Rent, but... I have an answer to your question ..
No, It's not bad, actually weeks ago I randomly told my mom 'I'd rather die from a disease' and she looked at me like I'm crazy but yeah .. I really do rather die from a disease but life has advantages and disadvantages, i though about this a lot.
Yes, we are all going to die. Like for example when a friend of mine says "This guy died from a car crash, I feel sorry for him", I don't get it, why would we feel sorry if we're going to die anyways? It doesn't matter when or how, it's going to happen, so suck it up. Like when my grandma died 90 years old, I wasn't shocked or surprised, actually I was expecting it, it's about time isn't it?, everything happens for a reason, and she died for a reason at the age of 90, maybe we're all so curios to know the reason and if we had a choice we will choose to know the reason of why things happen, but when we know the reason, we will wish we didn't.
As for myself, I'd rather not know the reason for any of things that happened/happening/will happen to me.
When you die without a disease, you will die suddenly without the fear of death because you didn't really expect to die NOW.. So that's an advantage from the sudden death but the disadvantage is "what if you wanted to apology to your boyfriend about something or your parents or your best friend" and you died suddenly without apologizing or without achieving you dreams.
When you die with a disease, you will have time to do stuff, like apologize to people you hurt and go play golf because you always wanted to do that, if you have a disease and you're going to die after two months, you will do right things, you will live the best two months of your whole life because you'll do whatever you always really wanted, you'll make the right discussions, you'll feel the value of life, but the disadvantage, you'll die with fear, you'll die wanting to live instead.
So either way it sucks. Happiness isn't why this planet exists. Some bad stuff happen to you and people go like "It's God's fault", No it's not.
Life isn't great but if you believe it is, it will be.
Like I see life just like a test. Like a shopping Mall, there are stores on the left and on the right. The rules are, You shop only at the stores on the right, you'll pass your test but you won't do everything you like. You shop on the left, you won't pass your test but you'll go clubbing, have sex, and rock n roll.
It's up to us... Hope I helped or answered any of your questions.
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