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I have no emotions apart from fear and ..... Whats wrong?
I am 18 and i live in england
I have no emotions and this has happened to me since well.... forever . My earliest examle i can think of was when i was 6 and i realised my dad was not coming home. My sister cried and felt depressed for weeks and yet for some reason i felt absolutely nothing.Then 4 years later my mother turned psycotic she used to hit me and twist my arm behind doors and she actually broke my arm with a iron rod.... and i didnt feel any hate or grudge against her.And she left to live in france with another boyfriend ( shes had countless ones me and my 3 sisters are all from different fathers) And her leaving didnt fase me and the fact she got breast cancer 2 years later didnt fase me i remain placid. Also my father tried to step into my life again twice. and i couldnt care less. I have what you would call friends but they mean nothing.I only go with them because im scared of everyone else i dont know im extremely self concious when i walk down the street... and at home. I restrict what i watch and listen to to suit my friends likes and dislikes.I always feel like im being watched . I always mimic what i see on tv. all my comments u can quote from a show somewhere.i thought about simply dying because i really couldnt care. nothing at all about life interests me. What im basically asking is what am i? what should i do next....and to be honest i probably wont care......
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Well, maybe your afraid that if yOu tO klOse o2 sOmeOne they'll leave yOu... are yOu the Oldest Or yOungest? Because that plays a rOle iin iit tO... abOut yOur mOm yOu dOnt feel anythiiNg prObably becauSe she hasn't been a mOther o2 yOu sO udk hOw tO feel
Siigned- NiiSha BayBiie
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wow. that's tough.
you're really going to have to see someone for that, but for now all i have to say, isnt you havent found your love.
it seems to me you've never been loved from your parents, and because your dad left it just left you feeling emotionless.
you need to be set free. not by dying but by screaming. or finding someone you truly love.
take a hobby.
and stick to it.
i hope everything works out for you.
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