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a past affair that i cant forget
in my early 20s i had a affair with a lady 20 years older than me the sneeking around was quite a thrill we always met up most wednesday evenings after her visit to weightwatchers we would then drive to a quite spot and have fantasic sex or i would take days off work and we would go to a hotel for the day where the sex was better as i was a lot younger than her i was enjoying what was to be a great adventure. as i was a shy person i would never had done anything like this. as time went on i was falling in love with her and she told me that she loved me. this lasted for 18 months for her then to tell me she was going back to her husband . this turned out to be untrue she went back to a past affair she was having.this lady took away 18 months of my life as i had offers from girls my own age to get to know. since the break up i have been married for 12 years but the sex isnt the same when i iam releaving my self iam always thinking about what i did during this affair with this lady. she always got me performing sex positons that i only saw on porn films this was such a turn on for me just like her perfoming on me being giving a blow job by this lady was awsome and me making her come with my middle finger was fantasic just to hear her moan and groan. i always got a hard on by just looking at her.this doesnt happen now unless i am thinking about this affair. can you give me some advice please to help me get over my past.
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First few words... Its all in your subconscious... You loved some one in your teen age and that's very natural... you loved her away from time and society... You have enjoyed your first moments with her... Since these first moments are precious and you don't want to loose all those moment in past so you are still keeping them alive.. You want her, so even when you are with your partner, you are actually assuming that you are with that first lady... But past is way back from today.... you have a good married life and you can not ruin your life on the cost of some old memory (it may be your first love).
What you can do is... ask few questions to yourself honestly.... what is your wife means to you? can you live without her? Can you live isolated...??? Do you still want to remember a guy who left you in a trauma of emotions... ?
And remember "Far away drums are nice"...
So better stop thinking about her... live your life as a happy and satisfied human... and overpower you subconscious....
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