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this thing i call a boyfriend
16/f boyfriend is 15/m
kinda long but kinda interesting too
my boyfriend has bipolar disorder and depression
i also think he is schitzophrenic at times... but thats just me. oh and hes also the biggest asshole you will ever meet. but im a bitch at times so we make a great couple...most of the time
you would never know that he had these problems though. hes captain of the varsity football team, plays lacrosse, class clown, one of the most loved guys in schoool. all the girls find him really hot and they all want to date him. but he was known as the biggest player in school too. as in he had 10 girls at the same time. and i know this because we were best friends before we dated and he would tell me everything. when we were best friends everything was perfect and he treated me like his number one. when we started dating he still treated me like his number one but he was also a huge asshole sometimes. when we fight we both put eachother down so much and says things like fuck u, i cant stand u, and just other dumb stuff. but we usually fight on the phone because fighting in person doesnt go so well.
funny story that you dont have to read, you can skip but this is why we dont fight in person (well we were yelling and i had just come home from a party and i was soaking wet because i had walked to his house in the rain and i was in a dress and stilletos and my hair was dripping. we started yelling and i finally had enough and said IM ABOUT TO SHOVE MY STILLETTO UP YOUR F****IN ASS IF YOU DONT SHUT UR MOUTH FOR 2 SECONDS. well he walked over to me shoved me against the wall grabbed my face, and we started making out kind of violently (we can be rough sometimes haha) and he ripped all my clothes off and yeah. so thats why fighting in person never works unless im upset and crying. then he holds me and tries to work things out. but apparantly my anger seems to turn him on. so most of our fights happen over text or a call which probably isnt a good way of communication.)
the thing is, i really love him. i couldnt imagine living wihtout him. we fight so much and at times cant stand eachother, but we always make up and hes my everything. i cant stand to be without him. but being in a relationship with a guy who has so many problems is so hard.
everything was going fine for the first 3 months and we were so in love. we still are but then we hit this patch that i really didnt think we would get over. it was fighting, not talking for days, crying and yeah it was no fun. but even in this stage, we still had our good days and that was what kept us going. but i didnt know how long this could go on for and after a month of this, he said we should take a break.
at first i was happy about it because i felt like i needed some space. but i still cried everyday because all i wanted was to be with him. i was a mess and didnt want to talk to anyone. after 2 weeks of this break, my boyfriend said that he didnt think our relationship was going to work. so we broke up. i was so upset, but a week later he wanted to get back together. (he always changes his mind about everything) ((schitzoooo))
so we got back together but now (2 months later) we are going through the same thing, he said that he hates being around me sometimes and that he just cant do it anymore. so we broke up. (again)we yelled and screamed and i slammed the door in his face because he was being an asshole and i walked out. he texted me later and we talked a little bit. he asked me what i wanted to do and i said i wanted to get back together but that i wasnt going to because he didnt want that. but he kept saying that he wanted to do whatever i wanted. i told hom to do whatever made him happy and he got pissed and told me to just stop worrying about his happiness and tell him what would make me happy. but i love him and was not going to make him unhappy so i said we should take a little break then maybe get back together in a while. so he said ok.
my question is, should i keep going back into this unstable on off relationship even though the same things keep happening and it hurts me. or should i just end it? and i cant just be friends with him because there are too many feelings so its either all or nothing.
i love him so much and i cant imagine ever being with somebody else. even if i did end this relationship with him i could never imagine being with another guy. but his bipolar is makin him love me one second and hate me the next. but even in the bad times he says he still loves me and thats what keeps me going. i just dont know if this relationship will work because one second we are fine, but the next he wants to break up and i dont want to keep it going if he seems like he doesnt want to and is just staying with me because he wants me to be happy. i just want him to be happy and sometimes i think the relationship is making him so unhappy and hes only in it for me. i want to be there for him and i know he has a hard time dealing with all his stuff but i want him to know that he can always come to me for anything and ill always be there.
im so confused i just dont know what to do. im so in love with him and hes my best friend too. what do i do?!?!?!?!? thankssssss
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Wow!! Well I'm 25/m that's so crazy cause me and my high school sweetheart(now beautiful wife) were the same way in high school, the skizo, and all we had the exact same problems, so confused, and so in love, asshole and a bitch, I was the big player, and she was tryin to change me, wait chk this, I put her through so much shit, and she stayed, by myside,now were married wit two beautiful kids, and wouldn't trade it for the world, if you love someone hang on tight cause its gonna be an emotional roller coaster, nobody says life isn't easy no matter who u choose in life, your gonna have problems, you jus have to know you have eachothers back, building memories, then breakin it off, can really, shread a heart" I know your confused, but lookin back at my situation, then hearing your wonderful long story,lol, jus tells me you guys love eachother,good luck! Ps. Don't spend the rest of your life wondering what it could of been! Je
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Being in a relationship like that is rough. my ex was like that and i really thought i had love him but there wasn't enough feelings for me to always get hurt and deal with his crap you know? If you have the patience and can deal with this kind of relationship than why not go for it? you are young though and should be happy. it doesnt sound like you are. I think you should tell him your not happy and dont want to get hurt anymore and you think you should end this. (maybe he will relize how much you mean to him ) or maybe he willl be able to just go on with out you? guys are confusing but make it hard for him. dont just give in and take him right back. play hard to get a little ifyou even decide to take him back. good luck.. oh any my boyfriend does the same thing about dont worry about me being happy what will make you happy crap thats every guy if he truely cares.
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