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I cant feel emotions
I am an 18 year old male and I have been burdened with this problem since my early teens. I have very much in common with the other peole who posted questions about this. I have been depressed throughout my whole life but before I had this problem I could still "feel". When all this started I wasnt sure what was wrong with me, I found myself losing interest in friends, tv, video games, and music. I was 15 when my brother died, and after that I was certain there was something wrong with me. I didnt feel anything, not sadness, anger, or remorse. I tried to induce emotions to no avail, so it just went on like that. I felt like a robot, acting a certain way in public so no one would know that inside my head was a whirlwind of thoughts. The only thing I could feel was fear and frustration. I could very easily read, predict and manipulate other peoples emotions. Because I understood what sadness, anger, and happiness were, I just couldnt experience them. I was always very intelligent(I graduated high school at 17). It seems this has an indirect or direct connection with my disorder. Anyway the only things that still give me some sort of rush is politics, and pride. I am utterly dead inside though, I feel like I am fading away. What is the cause of this and is ther any help out there?
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I'm sorry if my previous answer seemed a little lackluster in terms of what you were looking for, but I was, to be completely honest, excited. I never thought there were many others like me that shared a similar experience and I guess I let it get the best of me. Though I still know very little about the disorder itself, I can guarantee you that we are anything but dead inside. People like us have more potential than, I would argue, any other people on the planet. One thing I have definitely gathered from this is that the reason people like us can easily read, predict, and manipulate others is because we have a better understanding of them than most normal people do. We don't simply hear people talk, we notice everything about them. Because they are different from us, we notice all the things they do that are foreign. A British person coming to the states would be hard pressed not to notice cultural differences of any American person they would encounter, and vice versa. Look at it in that sort of manner. It isn't a fully correct analogy, but I figure you get the picture. We observe them rather than get involved with their problems at an emotional level. Because of how little we involve ourselves, we can more easily manipulate without the guilt of knowing we are toying with another person's life. To be honest, a few years ago that was all I did around people; warp them in whatever manner I needed at the time. More recently, however, I have been attempting to do it only when necessary. I don't want to abuse this. Intelligence is a key link to our disorder, for lack of a better term. The disease that this ailment is close related to, antisocial personality disorder, is characterized a great deal by a high intelligence. You can't be stupid to do the kinds of things we can. My friend, I firmly believe that what we have is a gift. Treat it as such. Respect it. Appreciate it. Use it as you see fit, just never forget how lucky you and I are to not be bound by emotional attachments. If you have any further questions, or feel I have not answered your question in the way you wished, please feel free to give me feedback.
Best of luck.
-Nick
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