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My ex
Ok All i have been doing to far is answering advice so i figure for once Id ask it. K well Me and my Ex are good friends now but there is still the akward moments and silences but we have alot of fun. ALso once in awhile we seem to do this thing where we kiss and makeout and hug and just lay with eachother for hours but then act like nothing happened. Im not even supposed to be seeing him actually..Im not allowed to but Im 17 and I still love him.Hes a bestfriend of mine now. Truthfully Im suprised he even stuck around..My fam tried to run him over and have tried to seperate3 me from him multiple times.But hes a wonderful person and even if we arent dating I love his company.Recently though ..Im single and he is single and we have been though alot.which i will tell at the end,I mean I like being single but Im beginning to want to date him again,of course he doesnt wanna date anyone right now or anything like that. but yeah I miss him in that way and dont ya think after all of this if we can still be in contact and things keep happinin(falling in love,kissing,developing feelings) that maybe it means something???? because thats what I have been thinking I dont believe in coincidences and I dont like to leave things to chance cuz just sitting around you could lose just one moment that affects you whole life so I have just been enjoying his friendship and hoping maybe one day we will be more.
(what we went through)
Ok well like I said there was the running him over deal..that I hated.Scared the hell out of me.Raj had hurt me many times though.Our 1st breakup he did onlline over myspace...wow huh?? and I was devasted(first breakup for me)and couldnt stop crying for longtime.Then we did this annoying back in forth thing that completly toyed with my heart and hurt like hell.I put up with his yes and no back n forthness,new gfs calling and txting me when they were with him or in bed with him...all kinds of shit.But he says that doesnt matter because what I did was worse eventhough it was just one thing I did(it was pretty bad though) but I think we are even. I did something Horrible to him once..we were "talking"and he finally had said he loved me but we had gone back in forth so much that all it did was scare me and I had invited him to this party but he said he couldnt go that he had to be with some friends so i invited my ex who was just a friend because he said he wanted to come so i was like fine we can chill out there and apparently Raj(the one I love)had called me druring the party...and I well..I wasnt really drunk I just had some khalua and my ex was begging me..and I was scared bout wat was going on with raj(didnt want to get hurt again) and for some reason...He started kissing me and It made me think of Raj and how we used to be and then I really fucked up..I got caught up in that thought and let him take my virginity in the back of a party....It wasnt for long cuz I got to my senses real quick and thought how stupid it was and i made him get off me quickly and ran back inside the party and he went home.The next day I called Raj and I told him..I wasnt sure how to be about it but I knew I could never keep something like that from him.I hurt him really bad.I wish I could change it but I cant.The past is the past.
So yeah some help would be nice.We are good friends but I cant help but think of all this when we kiss or there is even talk of us being together....Im completly scared as hell
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ok, so i'm going to tell you what i tell myself. i dated a guy on and off and we still hook up sometimes. so obviously somethings still lef there. and if you can trust him and he trusts you and you really do believe you want to give you guys another chance then go for it. because then you guys will just end up having all these random hook ups which will mean nothing. so why not go for a real relationship. and then if it doesn't work, it doesn't. then you know what you are missing, nothing.
hope everything works out.
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Well you did a mistake, but we are humans and we do mistakes all the time, and hey you were drunk.
What you did is in the past and you learned the hard way but at least you got your lesson.
Life is all about learning and experiencing.
You should wait, and about the *making out* i think you should stop and if he asked you why are you changing your mind, you should confess and tell him you have strong feelings for him, and from there wait until his next move. Hope it ends good.
Good Luck
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