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Scary Dreams (really long sorry)
When i was younger something happend to me but i really dont view it as a big deal. I remeber it very well but i think to everyone else its like nothing so i view it as nothing also. When i was 8 years old i had some friends they were all older than me but not by much. There were a couple girls who were 9 and 10 and there was a 14 year old guy. When i was 8 all i wanted was to be friends with these people and for them to like me so they started a "club". One of the girls looked and me and said he says if you show him yours he will show u=you his of coarse i just thought there were joking but they weren't. They really wanted me to but i knew better and i said no at 8 years old i knew i wasnt supposed to see a boy like that or show myself. So the girls did it after the guy showed himself they showed there selfs and he touched them with his fingers and grass the whole time i was just sitting there not knwowing what to do. They made me promise not to tell anyone but i left and told my parents we got a restraining order and he moved. I know it's not a big deal from my point of view but they wanted me to go to the hospital to get checked out and childrens survices came to my house. I never thought about it much until i got older and now i have an obsession with rape and sexual abuse I feel descusting for it and i have a huge fear of sexual abuse. But i had a dream the other night it was about this and i also have a sleeping disorder so i woke up crying and i kept waking up. When i woke up the next morning i was quiet and i was sad for a huge part of the day. I feel like im just being dramatic. was it even a big deal? and what does it mean? I want to talk about it but i think my parents have no idea how hard it was for me or that i still think about it.
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What you have is a problem with distinguishing a reasonable threat with a serious threat. Yes, sexual harassment and rape do exist, but you need to be able to figure out what are probably situations in which it could happen and those when it probably won't. I had a good friend that was raped and was scared of guys for a long time (about 7 years) and we ended up dating. You just need to start trying to trust people. I feel what you went through, just try to understand that not all guys are like that. Most men will respect you completely. That situation was partially due to age, and partially due to that guy being a creep. Try making just one friend that's a guy and build from there.
That being said I will warn you. In highschool most guys are extremely sex-oriented. You may feel awkward in those situations. Just back away from them. Remember, if anything bad happens, you can take legal action. I hope you see that most guys aren't bad. It's not a gender issue at all. It's an issue of some guys having mental problems. Good luck and stay in touch.
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