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Shall I tell her husband?
Thanku for your kind response. At least some understand me. If I tell her husband would`nt I be committing a worse crime? After all his world would be broken and what of he children. As I said I want revenge, but you can`t make someone love you. Something about her nature appealed to me you see. So I`m at fault really. But the memories are killing me. Everytime I se her in m dreams the next morning is hell. My dreams are`nt real, but I live in a dream world. I cannot erase the pain so erasing mysel is the next option. Yes it`s a cowards way and eternal damnation awaits me but the pain is too great and I can`t function properly due to it. I`m just another saddo who`s let his heart govern his mind, but I`m not very endowed in that department either. I don`t have anything to offer anybody. So why go on. I have`nt slept for many nights now. It`s 6.30am in the morning and I`m wide awake. All I have is my dreams and now they`ve been poisoned by my memories of her. I can`t hate her as mh love for her is unconditional. I can`t console myself as I have nothing to look forward to. I`m hoping that my excesses (smoking pipes and eating unhealthily) will take their toll sooner rather than later, but that is just cluthing at straws. No one knows when they`re time has come so why not do it yourself? My pain will end and my unremarkable existence will also. I am NOBODY, so no wonder she wanted shot of me. If I told her husband what would I get? Would I revel in her pain. No I would not as I love her with all my heart and soul. However, I would have the comfort of knowing that her illusion that life is easy and mistakes go unpunished would vanish in an instant. I love her so much that I can no longer have a thought without her thouhgts invading my mind. I do not need psychological help, I mean would that make me stop lovin her or make my dreams of her go away? No as these are involuntary and I have no control over them. Tell me why living, in my case, is better than dying. I have done nothing for anybody in my life as I HAVE NOTHING TO OFFER, do you understand that much? I`m in hell anyway so why not just die anyway?
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I know that this woman has hurt you very much and you are greiving over not having her. That happens to many people. I know this issue right now is the only thing on your mind and you feel like just losing hope and not going on is the best thing to do. IT'S NOT! Time will help. A lot of people don't believe it when they are going through something bad at the time, because they are in such pain at the moment. It really does get better in time. You are going to find someone else that is going to knock you off your feet (believe it or not) and make you fall in love all over agin. You are probably thinking "she is the only one for me." This isn't true. Time helps and doing other things, such as going out and meeting other people and doing other things will help you. This is all going to be difficult to think about but it will get easier. If you end your life, it will be for a reason that can easily be fixed. You are just in a lot of pain right now over her and you should not let those emotions take your life. The future will be brighter. You won't ever get a second chance at life so why end the great oppurtunity to start again....People come and go, but there is a reason they don't make it to your future. It could be for the better. I really hope this helps and i hope your decision is to not take your life away for this woman. As for telling her husband, he needs to know. He can't go on and be living a lie. It's the best thing to do. It would only hurt him worse to find out later. If you have any other questions, just ask! I will be glad to help!! Good luck!
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