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i am so hurt, i need to move on, i really do..
18 female..
for the longest time i've like this boy but he had a girlfriend. well i couldn't let myself like anyone else and i knew he was well worth the wait. i hoped they would eventually break up but two and a half years later and they're still going out. now i know he wants to get with me but it's like he wants to still be with his girlfriend, but then also have me too and i don't want to be involved with that AT ALL and i made that clear to him. two weekends ago they went on a break. i was so happy, i thought this was finally my chance. i did have my doubts though, and even though i didn't want to get my hopes up i did anyways and as always, i'm hurt and alone. i talked to him last weekend, we were going to hang out but we didn't and i haven't talked to him since. well i was talking to my cousin tonight and she was like yeah, i think they're going back out or whatever you want to say. and i tried SO HARD to act like i didn't care. i was just like well yeah, i knew that was going to happen but whatever, i'm over it and she was like i'm sorry but i just think it's dumb because i know he doesn't want to be with her, i know he is just staying with her because their families are close (this is true). i'm just so done with this, i wan't to be over him SO bad. i can't put myself through this anymore but i'm so heartbroken. he's the only guy i have trusted, we're like best friends. i still want to be friends with him, i do love the boy but it's just so hard for me you know? i can't take this hurting anymore :( i hang out with my friends, but all i can think of is him. i hang out with other guys, but to me, they're just friends i could NEVER see myself dating any of them which makes me want him even more. i just have so much hate for him, he's put me through so much and i feel like i want to make him jealous. i want to make him realize that he could of had something good with me, but didn't want to take the chance but i don't want to piss him off to the point where he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. how can i talk to him about this? i just want to be like, well have fun with her, i'm going to hang out with the boys or something like that. i'm having so many mixed emotions. i feel like without him, i'm nothing. i can't concentrate in school because i'm always thinking about him. i can't have fun on the weekends because i know he is with her. i can't sleep at night because of him. i can't let him go, as much as i want to. i've tried not talking to him, it honestly hurt even more. i don't have luck with guys. i've never went out with a guy before because i have trust issues and he was the only one i trusted. i don't know what to say to him, i wan't him to know that i am hurt. i wan't him to know he lost the chance with me and that i'm finally moving on..i wan't him to know i can be happy without him. i feel so alone right now, you guys don't even know. i feel like he ripped out my heart and stomped on it right in front of me.
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I know you probley won't believe me but I know how you feel. And I'm so glad you asked this. I'm 14 and this guy told me he liked me so much and that I was so special and then he went and dated this other girl the next day. And I hated him so badly because well he used me pretty much. Anyways I totally vented at him over it when she wasn't around and it was good. What I told him was (you can use this if you want)
Look just hear me out. You messed around with feelings which was unfair and now I'm stuck here feeling like crap over it. You told me lies and dated that girl. I still like you a lot but I don't want to date you. I think were better off friends, permantly.
That's what I said and weird thing was he understood. And now he's on girl number 3 and were still super tight. Like you I trusted and trust him so much thas why I felt used but a guy like that that your describing wouldn't trash a trust thing luke that. Hope this helps.
*and besides a girl only needs three men in her life. Her daddy, ben and jerry. Hahaha :)
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