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heartbroken, as always
18 years old, female...
i have the worst luck with guys. i've liked the same guy for like two years now but he's had a girlfriend of seems like forever. me and him are pretty close, and i'm sure that now he knows i like him. i know he is attracted to me too, and wants to get physical but obviously not going to happen since he has a girlfriend. when he says he wants to get with me i say, "you know i want to, but you also know there is always something holding me back.." and he'll be like and what is that i will be like your GIRLFRIEND. well tonight he texted me and we're suppose to hang out tomorrow but he texted me tonight and was like, what are you doing and i was like just with my friends and i was like how bout you and he was just like, with some dudes.. lets hang out. i said, i can't im with my friends AND your with your friends! and he was like i'll leave. and then i was like but i wont, see me tomorrow! and then he was like "fuck you tomorrow" meaning he wants to have sex. but we havent done ANYTHING keep in mind, not even kiss. and then thats when again i was like you know whats holding me back, your girlfriend. and he was like just don't think about it, we're like breaking away kind of anyways its not how it use to be (this is true i've noticed) and then i respond by saying well then please tell me why you're still with her and he said, "i dont know, i feel bad like to break up and im all close to her family and stuff and i would be pissed if she got with another guy" i know that it would be hard, i understand but i just don't get it so then i was kind of upset and was like "well you can have fun with her for the rest of your life" and he was like haha oh yeah. that wouldn't happen. i'm just so confused. don't tell me he's a jerk, not a good friend and everything else that may go through your mind i don't want to hear that. they have been going out for 2 and a half years which is long. they haven't had any other boyfriends or girlfriends except each other. I UNDERSTAND it would be extremely hard but for me, it's even harder. i thought they would end up breaking up, but when i heard what he said i was shattered, heartbroken, everything you could feel at once... if they broke up, of course i would give him alone time, i would give him freedom i wouldn't pressure him to go out with me or anything. i don't see how he can say he doesn't want to break up with her, but doesn't want to be with her forever? i'm so lost you don't even know...i still want to be friends with the kid but i'm completely head over heals for him and nothing or nobody will change that.
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