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depressed?..
18/f. let me tell you a little about myself...
-i go to college 20 minutes away, i commute.
-all my friends left me to go to college EXCEPT
one
-i've never had a boyfriend, yet i've been told i'm gorgeous too many times to count
-i'm outgoing when i want to be and overall i'm a nice person
-i have trust issues but i open up to people way too easily
-i miss high school, those were the best times of my life..
thing is, i feel like im depressed. since all my friends left for college i dont do ANYTHING and really i'm getting sick and tired of it. i go to school everyday, come home take a nap, do homework, watch tv and go to bed. on the friday's usually i'll hang out with my friend that goes to a community college here (one of my best friends) on saturday's i won't do anything. i'll work, come home do a little homework and then do nothing. it's just hard for me right now i feel so alone. i have friends from high school that i can hang out with but i feel so pathetic hanging out with them, and my family is always like why do you still hang out with high schoolers? me and my best friend say we're going to go to all the colleges and visit everyone, but it's never going to happen. we have too different of schedules. sometime's i just sit in my room and cry. nobody knows im like this i pretend like everything is okay and that i'm having fun because really i don't want people to feel bad for me. i feel like i'm not good enough for any boy. all the one's i like, don't like me back but there are SO many that do like me and they're like in 10th grade in high school, weird?! i feel like everyone is prettier than me and everyone has so much of a better life than me. i just have all these emotions sometimes i don't even feel like living anymore...i try to hang out with my best friend as much as possible but she is usually busy with work and school too. i go on facebook and myspace and see all these pictures of people going to parties, and having fun living their life while i'm at home by myself. i talk to people in my classes at school, but it's not the same..what should i do? i really can't take living like this anymore.... and it's NOT an option to live in the dorms..
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You need a hobby or boyfriend something to keep you busy, and you don't sound like a bad person so don't go down on yourself. Keep your head held high. You don't need to be depressed if you look you'll find someone or something. Go girl!
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Just because they are "high schoolers" don't mean a thing. I am 17 years old and my best friend is 22 going on 23. We did everything together and understood each other. Your only 18 years old. who cares if their in high school at least you will be out doing something and not at home all depressed.
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