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My only best friend for 3 years and..
Me and my best friend austin are very close friends.
We do everything together. We used to go to the amusement park like everyday for the past 3 summers until he got a job there. he promised he wouldnt but did anyway.
Me and him always used to argue though because we were so close i think. It bothered me alot. But I still cared about him. However, one day at school I got pissed because he was saying how i always talk about myself (maybe because he was my first best friend). I'm not too social, and he helped me become a better person and i learned alot from him. That day that he said that I got really mad, I transfered schools, and then dropped out the end of my junior year in highschool. It is now my junior yr summer, and I have adult ed in the fall. Since hes been working we havent talked much. Me and him didnt go to the amusement park like we used to not once yet. We planned for it one day, but i decided to go car shopping instead.. I felt like he was going to be better than me, or have something that i want. maybe I'm insecure about myself I'm not sure.
I always feel like we are competing against each other. Weather it's who works out more, who has more muscle, who gets their license first, or even who has a nicer shirt. I feel like I'm jealous of him. Alot of people dont know I am, but I am. I think this is whats holding me back from hanging out with him. He's my best friend though, but maybe were too alike?? I feel alone he was like my only close friend. I only have aquaintances really. I want this jealousy to end. and this competeing.
I want it to be like it used to be.
For some reason I like it when I seem better than my friends is this normal??
I got him to work out, and to run, and to buy hollister clothes and everything cool looking, and he did, and now its like affecting the way i feel about myself
Pleasse give any advice
NY152!
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Maybe give some free advice about: Friendship?
It seems like you like you're frienf more then you normally like a friend, get you're act together and slack off, keep a more unatached relationship and act like a male.
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well I myself do feel this way sometimes. But it's never been that bad to the point where I get upset, so I kept it in.
Maybe you can try having a deep conversation with him. I know that, that might be hard for two guys but maybe you have that kind of relationship. Tell him exactly how you feel and see if you can't figure out the reason why. Maybe he feels the same way as you.
If that doesn't help you might need to move on. People change and grow apart. I have lost many friends to this and it sucks a lot but it is life and sometimes it is not worth the pain to continue with the friendship!
I hope you figure this out.
Cassiopea
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