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losing everyone
14/f
this is going to be longgg!
okay well me and this girl named cori used to be
bestfriends. then i started realizing her and my
old bestfriend [ally] were becoming closer and closer. so
me and cori started getting in more and more fights. so i started losing cori and ally. now my
other friend chelsea has her head up coris ass all the damn time. so if coris mad at me all my "friends" are mad at me. okay well then i started feeling like everyone was hanging out with cori and i was just getting used and noone really liked me. so i started hanging out with this girl and her name is ashlyn. and she has helped me with alot. but i started liking her older brother.
so i found myself going to ashlyns house every weekend. me and ashlyns brother made out a couple times. but it got to this point where i went to school and i was messing with my other old friend
and his name is daniel. i told daniel i had sex with him just too see what he would say. big mistake affter i said i didnt. [and i did not have sex with him] he was like right. and no lie
the entire 8th grade knew. oh and cori my "old bestfriend" dated him. so i knew i was already about to get in this huge fight with her and everyone else that was stuck up her ass. so i didnt know how to tell everyone that knew that i was just kidding about that sex thing. it was a lie. but i couldnt do it. i told everyone it was true. not thinking about cori and ashlyns brothers
former realtionship. now i also broke up with my amazing boyfriend taylor. for austin. later realizing that was a HUGE mistake. he went to a different school SMS. and i would later on be seeing everyone from sms at shs when we all go to that highschool. well i was thinking that it would just wear off. people wouldnt care over summer but the guy i used to be in love with alex . just called me and said he never wanted to talk to me ever again. and he was being 100% serious. it hurt me like crazy. because right before that taylors other sms friends called me and was basically saying i was a hoe. and i was the worst thing on the planet. now this is where im at in this story - everyone hating me completely that i have to go to school with next year, something amazing [taylor] gone and there is
no way he would give me another chance, my friends from my school hating me, and that other guy [ashlyns brother] treating me like shit. after ashlyns brother was thee one that convinced me to break up with taylor. so right now i have no
clue what i want and need too do. we only have 2 more weeks of school. but there are so many things
we are all doing as the entire 8th grade. that i feel like ill be all alone. like the outcast during all of these activities. i used to be really popular [not to brag, trying to make a point] and its amazing how fast it went. it was cool to be popular and everyone liking you. but just to help you guys out dont make mistakes like i did. i hope you can help me get through this. cause im a wreck. and i need to apologize to
everyone i hurt i just dont know how. /= well thanks in advance!
and im sorry guys for how long it is.
but actually living through this is getting
more and more complicated i just need to end
this as fast as i can. and the best way to end it!
thanks again guys. you guys are lifesavers!
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Take a deeeeep breath. Now Hold it.
Ok now, let it out slooooooowly...
Everything is going to be OK.
You're obviously not enjoying the state of chaos that you're in and luckily, though it takes a bit of time and work, there's a way out of it.
Be honest with yourself and everyone around you. I assure you that all of the problems you're dealing with will go away. In fact, all of the people you probably shouldn't hang around with will tend to go away as well.
-- Stay Honest
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since you gave people something to talk about, they are going to keep talking. but in situations like this, then next move you make is crucially important. so make sure it's something good, and worth it. honestly you need to take time for yourself. people are mad, they will get over it with time, but you have to just wait it out. write them notes, if you can't apologize in person. you just have to never give up hope. someone will forgive you, and that person is a good person, because they are standing up for you.
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