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getting over friendships. [long]
This is long by the way, but I really need help.
Okay, I honestly needed to come here, I'm just so confused and apathetic towards everything.
Firstly, before I begin I'm suffering from depression. Not a small playground type depression, depression as in I'm seeing a counsellor. So what I'm about to tell you is no good to add onto that.
I've lost the little friends I had left tonight. I'm not going to rant on about who's fault it is. I don't even know. I don't know if I'm in the right or wrong, all I know is I don't have friends left.
What happened was we've been on last legs for a while. They've been disagreeing with something I believe in strongly, and although I tried to clear that out of the way of the friendship, they just couldn't let it go. I'm not saying this is bad or blaming them for anything.
Well, yesterday we had a sort of argument. I tried to tell them my point of view but they wouldn't really listen. Then they would ignore me. So needing to rant, I confined to some internet friends.
Today, I found out they read my rants to my internet friends. I'm not sure how, I know my internet friends didn't tell them. I didn't even drop names, and they don't know they exist.
So we're not friends anymore. They feel as if I betrayed them, and I lied to make them look bad. When the thing is, I couldn't tell them because they wouldn't listen and ignored me. And I suppose it was a TINY bit exaggerated, you know in that way you fight with your parents then recount it to your friends? Honestly reading back now though, everything I said was truthful.
Anyway, it's pretty rough. How do I learn to move on? It's only really sunk in now I'll be spending every day, every weekend in my house doing nothing, and I won't see the city for a long time.
Also, there's this internet forum we all go on. Should I continue posting on that or leave it? Out of all of us, I have the highest post count and I spent the most time on it, and the people there know me better, but since this is screwing up my head so much I just don't know what to do =S
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this is the decision you have to make... do you want to gain these friends back or do you want to move on? in order to gain these friends back it may take alot of work. considering they read that site maybe you could type some form of an appology to them or something. that may help, and continue to show you care and you truly want to be friends again. if you wish to move on then you will have to be open to putting yourself out there. its not easy to make good friends but not impossible. considering all that youre going through already i think you should remind your old friends of that. if they continue to behave this way though i think its best to just move on. hope i helped!
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