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I'm still trying, it scares me.
You'd think after getting hurt, used, and broken - a girl would stop trying to cheat what's meant to be, and give up on a guy, huh?
Well, I hope that's the case for y'all cause it's not for me. I'm still doing all sorts of immoral things, convincing myself that its OK "because I'm only doing what I have to do to end up with the one I love & am supposed to be with".
Here's the things though - we're not supposed to be. I discovered that after he used me sexually - GOT OVER HIM - but then fell back in love? Without him saying a word to me, without looking at him, I just woke up one morning.. and was back in love. Back hacking his email, calling his cellphone to hear his voice, stalking him, and spreading rumors. BACK BEING THE DISGUSTING PERSON I TURN INTO WHENEVER I LIKE THIS GUY.
What do i do? I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling something for him, I dont want to hate him, or love him, or know him. I want to feel nothing for him, back to when he was a stranger and I was a good person.
I'm not looking for advice on how to get over someone, i did that already. I followed all the steps, I waited it out and let time heal my wounds, and it worked - I got over the a**hole. BUT NOW IM FREAKING BACK. WHY AM I BACK?
I really just wish someone would tell me that its because we really are meant to be, and that I shouldnt fight it - just wait for us to end up together, married and happy 10 years from now.
But that's no the case is it? So what it? Why do girls (like myself) do this? And how do we prevent it (falling for the wrong guy, getting stuck on him after he proved he was infact the wrong guy, and then lie to ourselves to stay in misery..loving the wrong guy) ?
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if anyone knew the answer, there would be alot less broken hearts out there.
do something for me.. write out the bad and good's of this guy. WHY do u like him, what makes him different.
although my bet is you can't answer that, that there is this strange connection between you to, that you can't control.
you say your in love, but are you really. if it were love he wouldn't hurt you or treat you bad, he would compliment you and vise versa.
im not saying it wont happen for you to, but you need to focus on something else, try and stop these "immoral things", go out have fun with friends.
try becoming good friends with him just talking, and acting normal, this will help u develop a sense of how he feels and make you see things from a clearer perspective.
i know this isnt the answer you wanted but i hope this gives you a little to think about
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