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i NEED! to be more outgoing. please..... help me
(this isn't really a question im describing my problem. yes it is long but if you have the time just read it...please.)
Im 14 years old
medium curley light brown hair(yeees i straighten it. like the usual girl lol) :)
hazel green eyes
olive skin
and im 5'3
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i'v never had a boyfriend, a first kiss or a relationship.
through 6th to 8th grade about 15 to 20 people asked me out. none of them have i ever thougth more than friends. in 7th grade a guy i really liked told me he would never go out with me and never like me that threw me back down in my self-esteem. im in 9th grade now and i consider myself ugly and fat. my friends say im so pretty and beautiful but i cant believe it no one special to me has ever said that to me and it's like im in a ball full of dissapointment and shame and fear, ya know? now i like this guy he's cute, nice, funny, weird, the only thing i dont like is he does drugs at 15(but thats not gonna set aside my feelings for the rest of his personality) black hair blue eyes and we used to talk alot in the beggining of the year but later he cam to a point were he thinks i hate him. every now and then we talk and give hugs but i want to get closer to him i just dont have the courage to do anything. he used to give me hugs and pick me up while doing that. but im so self-concious and have a low self-esteem that i asked him not to pick me up anymore. ya know why? everytime he did i thought he was thinking "wow shes so much heavier than all the other girls i've picked up" everyone always says i look depressed alot of the time and my usual answer to them is im not really im happy.
but i need to tell them that i really am unhappy all the time
i want someone that hugs me everyday to kiss wen i go to school
to talk to when i'm having a bad day.
i know im only 14 and dont need to worry about these things but i do. i dont have anyone to talk to, maybe that one friend that i can always talk to but when i do i feel like im talking about myself to much and that makes me even more sad so i hold everything in and pretend im happy. please help me
you dont even have to give me advice just read it.
thank you :)
i appreciate it :)
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I'm the same age as you- and I am in the EXACT SAME SITUATION.
Well, I think your problem is that you didn't accept the dates that people asked you on when you were younger.
It could be that, or you just haven't met the right person.
I'm sure you're as beautiful as they say you are. People cannot usually recognize their own beauty. So you're not unusual. :D
Find something that makes you happy, that isn't a boy. I'd recommend taking dance classes or auditioning for a school play/musical. Take voice lessons or piano lessons or something.
Your problem with depression could be linked to a lack of endorphins (chemicals that make you feel good that are released through exercise). So if you don't already, start and maintain a good exercise program. You'd be surprised how much better you feel after just one workout.
i hope i helped- and let me know how everything works out.
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