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whats wrong with me??
i dont know.. but i guess i always envy other peoples friends. i mean like you hear about people being the best ever.. but they arent my friends. some of my friends arent even really like me, and i dont know why i hang out with some of them. i mean, some of them are, and i enjoy being around them more. but i also kinda have trouble making new friends, after being around people now for this year and for some even years before.. but we just never talked enough to be like close, or i hardly even talk to them. and i dont know if i want to be popular or not.. i mean i say that i dont really care, but i guess i also judge people by like how they look, and if they dont dress like nicely and atleast put together and somewhat goodlooking, i treat them kinda differently, like i kinda look down on them. im so mad that i do this.. i try to stop. its probably vain and all those other bad things but its just in my mind and i dont want to think that way... but some of my friends seriously are pretty boring, not the way i am so i dont have the most fun around them. its annoying.. i cant just go up to some people i've known this year that i barely talk to and basically are in a diff clique and be like "hey wanna be friends?" im not that outgoing.. well till i get to know you and/or i dont feel that shy around you for some reason. like i see all these people having fun going to their friends houses and stuff and etc and i wanna be like that. i like doing that stuff but like most of my friends arent really into it for some reason.. not that they have to be rich, i mean im not even that rich, but i dont know why some people are so boring. like sometimes i carry the whole conversation and they just arent easygoing and just laugh and act coolish. like theres this girl thats kinda mean, and its prob reall shallow of me and junk but sometimes i want to be her friend.. i dont know why, like once i imagined that like we were both good friends and junk.. cause i just get the feeling that shes either jealous of me, doesnt like me.. or i dont know. i mean im not as popular as her, so i dont know why shes doing it and i dont know why i'd like to be her friend when shes not nicest person ever.. does it mean that i want to be popular???? but people say that the key to be popular is to not care about being popular but.. its so confusing!! i dont know what to think!!! ugh so advicenators, whats my diagnosis? and how can i make new friends easier, stick with the good ones, and other things relating to this. my mind's just jumbled, and normally im an optimistic person, but i just want everything to be clear in my mind, and live a fun life that i wont regret when im older.
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Hmmm... I don't honestly get what is so fabulous about being popular. I started as a loser, and managed to become popular (not of my own choosing) and though I was popular, I still chose to be a loser, and hang out with my beloved loser crowd. Why should I have given the time of day to those who wouldn't do the same for me in the previous year? Those people may have wanted to hang out with me all of the sudden, but they were NOT my friends.
Popularity is for the birds, if you ask me. For one thing, once you enter this wonderful cruel world, nobody cares one iota if you were Miss High School, USA. Once you walk out those doors for good, you leave it behind you, like it or not. That's why so many long for those gone highschool days, instead of enjoying the life placed before them.
Also, if you were to become pals with this popular mean girl, well, you are going to likely act just as mean as she is. Surely you don't want that.
And to want to be her friend isn't shallow, but to choose your friends based on their exterior is. REAL friends don't always look so manicured (not saying that is necessarily what you are saying about their looks, but you get the picture). Miss High School, USA may be the girl everyone desires to be, but she is likely a mean, cold-hearted, backstabbing bitch in some way, shape, or form. Miss High School USA tends to walk on those around her in order to retain her social status.
Nope. Don't sound like a real friend to me.
As for making friends, I'm like you. Shy until I get to know you, then outgoing. You can't just go up and say "let's be friends". But you can start a friendship by just going up and saying "Hey! What's up?" and trying to start a civilized conversation. Yes, true, hard for the shy, but far be it from impossible. Just try to socialize with other people and maybe friendships will happen.
Try not to be hurt or offended by what I say. I'm not being a jerk. I'm speaking from experience and sharing with you the reality.
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