ok this is stupid, it happened a while ago (two months ago to be exact) but it bothers me.
so i was with my ex bf for two weeks. i had absolutely no feelings for him. he reaaallly liked me.
on our first date (thats when he asked me out) he kissed me. it was gross. he had fresh breathe, it was dark, and i wasnt nervous... until we kissed.
our next date we hung out downtown, and he HAADDDD to hold my hand. it was sooo annoying. like we would go into a store, and was always holding my hand and i had to look through stuff with one hand.
also he would kiss me all the time, which i hated, so i lied and said i dont like kissing in public or in general. i said that at least 3 times. he did not get it. he would still lean in for a kiss. i would just turn so he would kiss me on the cheek.
he would also say i love you all the time, and i felt obligated to say i love you back, even though i didnt mean it.
needless to say i broke up with him. but then he started sending me messages on myspace saying hi how are you, and even though i didnt reply he would send more and more. he even left me a message on my cell phone to wish me a happy bday. (this was about 2-3 weeks after i dumped him.
now i'm kinda scared to say yes when someone asks me out. i said yes to my ex cuz i thought i will grow to love him, but it was the opposite. i feel like i have to say yes to only the guys i have a crush on, or else i will grow to hate him and i wont even be friends with him. any feedback on this?
16/f
ps my ex was my first kiss.
pps. hes from el salvador and speaks spanish, he was only in the usa for two months when we went out. but i speak spanish pretty well so we were able to understand each other (he spoke english pretty well too)
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