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what a guy!
okay theres this guy i like. i knew him in 5th grade.. but i didnt really KNOW him he was just in my literacy class (which is 2 periods.) and then later now like hes in a couple of my classes, and once we sat together in math, and i didnt really like him "like him" i just thought he was okay and kinda annoying too. my friend thought we'd look cute together and i denied it even though i liked him a tiny bit. then i already had a crush on someone who eventually i stopped liking as a crush.. and i liked this person now, that im talking about. hes just so cute.. and etc. he sits kinda near me in most of my classes, in the beginning of the year we sat together in math like i said (well in our table) and then later we're in diff tables but like pretty close. i talk to him occasionally i guess. and i see him at lunch too. and ive noticed that i become like a little selfconcious now around him and like im still myself.. but like yeah. its kinda embarassing, like today i got up to go get something and i didnt even notice he was there and then i looked at him and then i felt like... woah. and he was looking at me too so i felt kinda embarassed. lol like in gym im usually pretty competitive, so like when hes there i like kinda flirt without really flirting sometimes.. or maybe to make him thing "wow that girl's so cool" haha if he already doesnt feel like that. i dont know and i dont know how to feel about it.. i mean.. if he asked me out would i say yes? i dunno if im ready for a relationship. im only 13!! even if some other girls in my classes have boyfriends.. my parents didnt grow up with all that stuff since they are from like cameroon in africa, so i guess they dont want me with a boyfriend either and they want me to focus on schoolwork and such.. but they didnt flat out say i couldnt have one. but i get what they mean cuz they dont want it to lead to like sex and etc but im not stupid like that. i'll just wait till college (with a condom! haha) or like when im married. i dont know and frankly i dont really care.. i have other concerns. anyways and in gym i'll be like all giggily with my friends and stuff.. not like in a weird way that you could tell im faking but like i'll try sometimes for him to see me smile since he sits like 1 spot away from me (we sit on the gym floor after getting changed. my friend sits inbetween us). ugh i cant help myself. and usually he answers to the things i say too. like i'll ask the teacher something and he'd say the answer.. its happened several times before. i dont know exactly how to feel!
OFF TOPIC: ack sorry if i made several spelling mistakes. my eyes are like spinning kinda.. so my vision is shaking back and forth. maybe im sick or this topic just makes me jittery! o the butterflies in my stomach, ha. okay.. its doing that now and stopping... O__O is this some sort of medical thing? aha thats my other question. it stops when i shake my head but now it keeps coming back!!! AKK
ps. the seats in those classes were assigned! haha we didnt get to choose them. before i'd sit with my girls.
13/f
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It sounds like you like him, maybe as a crush. When you're only 13, I agree you're not ready for a relationship. The only thing I would tell you to do is try to maybe keep talking to him, (if you're really that interested) and be yourself. There's not much else you can do.
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I'm not sure if I answered this completely right because you explained the situation, but didn't really ask for advice..
Jess♥
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