10 Month Relationship.. been over 2 months.. still in love.
Question Posted Wednesday January 17 2007, 7:42 pm
Hi, I'm a homosexual 16 year guy, I'll be 17 in two days. I was in a 10 month serious stable relationship with an 18 year old guy. We met in high school. We were perfect together, spent so much time together, had a great time together. He was like my best friend. I loved him and he loved me. We were in deep love. From when we first started dating, he told me where he stood on drugs. He's against them and does not like them at all. I was under the influence once when he caught me. I cried the whole night and asked for his forgiveness. I promised him I would never do it again. He gave me a chance. We were great for about 6 more months. I had used substances behind his back a couple of times, I didn't do it because I didn't love him... I honestly can't explain why, I just did, you know? So eventually... the day before our 10 month anniversary, he sat me down and talked to me. He was like "Look, I know you've done certain things behind my back.." and so from there we talked about it. He said he doesn't give out second chances.. and he left me. We now have been separated for a little over 2 months.. and we hadn't spoken the first month. He contacted me at the beginning of this year... telling me he didn't like this whole not speaking to each other ordeal, and that he would love to hang out. So we did this past weekend. We had a good time. But I was expecting something else, that maybe, just maybe he would want to be with me again... but it didn't happen. I cry almost every single night.. and I always think about him.. he's my first love. I just don't know if he feels the same way. I mean, like if you're trying to get over your ex who you were with for 10 months basically, 1 or 2 months is NOT enough. The only way to get over someone is to not speak or see them for a while you know? So this whole thing had confused me.. I want to know if he still loves me or not.. I really do.. but I don't want to ruin a friendship we have again now... What should I do?
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