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STUCK INBETWEEN. are these mixed signals? i like im too much
16, female.
im gonna warn you now it might be kinda long and im sooo sorry but i want you to get whats goin on..thank you so so much!!
okay so tonight. it was me my cousin and these two guys. my cousin liked one of the kids that was at her house (David) and i guess the other one thought i was cute and wanted to do stuff with me (tony). i thought tony was like a little brother to me so it was really awkard and he kept trying to hold my hand and i was like eeeeh..noo! and it was soooo bad. and then one of my cousins friend came. and this other kid too. his name is nick and this is the kid ive liked for awhile but he has a girlfriend named jessica =( soo they both saved me from the awkwardness thank god! and so when nick came i was on the computer and i was looking at something and he was saying hi to the guys that were there since he knows them too and then im like HI NICK! and hes like heyyy kristen wats up. :) and then i was talking to this girl on the computer and im like nobody can see go away! and nick is like noo i can and he like tried to get the mouse away from me and we were wispering about something (i forget) and got kinda close about it and then tony was sitting next to nick and he was like okay nick why dont you just go out with kristen and dump jessica. and i start laughing and im like uhhh what the heck! and then i was like what did you say? and then hes like nick you heard me right and hes like yea i heard ya and started laughing. and then tony was like if jessica was here would you be in the room making out with her and hes like nooo i would be out here making out with..kristen. duh i would makeout with jessica. and i was like ahhh noo! but then tonys like kristen i know you like nick and im like no i dont!! (nobody knows) and then im like we are just best friends =) and hes like noo you guys like each other and we're both like no we are just friends or whatever. so then my cousin and david went in her room and then so did tony and my cousins friend. so it was me and nick in their living room by ourselfs and he showed me this thing on the computer it was funny. but fun and i got to be with him. and hes like scoot over and he got closer and i was cold so i grabbed a huge blanket and wrapped it around me and he took some of it and covered him. and im like okay its my turn to look at something and he looks at me and smiles and is like not uh! and then we were really close like i would kinda be like..behind him close to his shoulder (its hard to explain). i mean i know he loves jessica and i just dont know because everyone thinks we like each other because of how we act. so i dont know if its too obvious that i like him or what? or if he is giving hints that he likes me i am soo confused! before he had a girlfriend we would flirt nonstop and it was physical haha. ok so then after nick left tonys like..soo who do you like? i know you like nick! and im like we're just friends. and hes like well he told me that you liked someone. and im like WHAT?? noo i dont. so i dont know if he said that to try and save me from tony or if he is saying that he can tell i like him i just dont know! then me and nick went driving to the gas station for a bit too until he had to go home =( i fall sooo hard everytime im with him, alot of people always think we're boyfriend girlfriend, but we're also good friends. and even though he is in love with his girlfriend (they've been going out for 5 months now..)what are these signals he is sending me if it is even that? he's been over to my house a couple times when i had to run in to get something and my parents think we are going out and they're like what you doing tonight and im like...hangin out with people and they're like who the boyfriend? and im like HES NOT MY BOYFRIEND. he has a girlfriend??!....and also when we were out to the gas station and i was getting gas i would look in the mirror and i could see him looking at me so i dont know if that means anything?! i dont want to tell him i like him because i dont know if he will feel the same and it will be WAYYY to awkward and it might ruin our friendship or make it weird..since he has a girlfriend and he will be like well umm i love jessica?..
ahh what do you think. i cant get him outta my mind. these are some quotes to help me explain how im thinking..
and even though we'll probably never be together, i refuse to let myself fall for anyone else..
how can you sit there and tell me about her and not even notice that im jealous?
you tell me about her and i smile and say "thats great" but you know me and by the look in my eyes you should be able to see that i want to be in her place..
and ive never felt more lost or confused i was so sure that i was the one to lose yet i still find myslef playing your game but i'll keep playing because without you i'll never be the same
I can`t stand being number two...
..when your my #1 <3
thank you! xoxo.
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I think that you just need to come out and tell him your feelings for him if you only tell him your feeling it wont hurt the friendship at all. who knows maybe he feels the same way about you and is only going out with the jessica girl to take his mind off of your or try to take his mind off of you because he is affraid of how you really feel toward him. I use to be like that with my friends that wanted to date me in my opinion i value friendship more then dating a friend. If you truely think that something can come of you two then let it flow and tell him the truth maybe he is hiding it from you of how he truely feels only cause of how he thinks your going to react. Do this when no one else is around no friends or anything that way he dont feel pressured to say well i don't really like you in front of them hopefully he will be truthful with him and if he still doesnt come back with an answer you like you have to force yourself to get over him it may take a while but, there is always someone out there perfect for us that is willing to tell us how they really feel. Don't be afraid to speak your mind.
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