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I hate the way my parents try to control my life. I hate the way they get what they want. (they dont want me to see him). I was hoping to see him this weekend. cause it would help me to get through the week. but they dont realize that. they dont realize that they are the reason for all of this. they dont realize what they've done to their baby girl. they've screwed up her life. screwed up my life. i know that sitting here thinking about all of this isnt making the situation better. it's making it worse. making me angry and depressed. seeing him this weekend would have helped me. helped me get over everything and know that he is truly there for me. cause that's what i really need right now. They dont realize that they arent enough. that i need love from outside the family. they dont realize that he provides that for me. they tell me that i dont know him. but i do. i know him enough to know that he would never hurt me. that he loves me. they argue with me about him. "we want the best for you". if they wanted the best, then they would leave me the hell alone and let me make my own decisions. and let me fail miserably. and then pick myself back up. That's what happened with sage. but they dont know about that. they'll never know everything. unless they read my inner thoughts like a book. a never ending book. i wish i was less like them. i dont hate them, i just hate the way they are raising me. they wont let me see my own goddamn boyfriend. and that pisses me off. i cant help but wonder what thats going to do to our relationship. i love him. and i cant imagine life without him. i would love to make him my everything, but sadly, i cant. sage took part of me when he left and mom and dad are preventing me from giving him the rest of me. i shouldnt be sitting here alone right now. i should be with him at this moment. but they prevented that. cause they dont want me to be with him physically. if they knew that we were going out, they would more than likely try to tear us apart. which is why i havent told them yet. they're smart. they'll figure it out when im ready for them to figure it out. i wanted to see him. i wanted to go be with him at the movies tonight. but i dont want them to hate him from the start. my parents are hard to please. god knows that. i swear to god they are going to be the death of me. literally. but if it wasnt for him, i wouldnt be here. i said that about sage, but this is different. cause sage never loved me. he never cared about me. and probably never will. he wansnt there for me. emotionally, or physically. and i hate him for that. i hate him for playing with my emotions. but my hate for him wont change anything about him. he doesnt care. and never will.
nick,
im sorry. sorry for everything. sorry for being so emotional all the time. sorry for not being able to be there for you physically. and at times, emotionally. im sorry that sage took part of me with him and therefore cant give you my everything. im sorry that when you walked into my life, it was in pieces. in ruins. im sorry for my parents not letting us be together physically. next weekend. for sure. if i have to sneak out of the house to see you, then so be it. im going to be with you wether they like it or not. youre my last hope. cause when i started seeing the signs of my relationship with sage ending, i know it was going to be the end of me. until you walked in. it was like the calmness in the middle of the storm. i reallly hope that we can make this last. cause i need it so badly. i love you. xoxo ♥
Sincerely Yours.
thats what i wrote. can anyone help me? cause i feel like dying. i cant take it anymore!
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i don't wanna offend you or anything but you are way too weak. love is too powerful for you.
but what ive read tells me that you really love this guy. sit down with you parents and explain to them that you are getting older and that they can't control you or make decisions for you. you are old enough to decide.
i have something similar to you. my parents try to control me as well. ive tried telling them but they hardly listen to me.
good luck and i hope ive helped
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