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i think i still like my best friend
17/M/Cali
Ok, so from the beginning...
When i first met my two best friends, three actually, but one of them left....so anyways....after i met my two current best friends three years ago...i fell in love with my best friend(lets call her sally) so anyways...i dont mean like, i had a crush, or i liked her for a week or two...i fell in love with this girl...i couldnt get her out of my mind, she was all i could think about for a year and a half...and even though she kind of liked me, and she considered me her best friend, she refused to go out with me on the basis of "because were such good friends and it would be kinda wierd"...so yeah, long story short, i got really depressed, to the point of attempting suicide(they still dont know i tried, no one does) so yeah, eventually, i just kind of gave up hope and got used to being alone, and it was kind of okay....so yeah, fast forward another year and a half, and ive know her and my other best friend(well call this one beth) for a little over three years now...i just recently found out that beth liked me(which is the reason my third friend left, apparently she liked me but never told me, now she hates me for going out with beth) so anyways, i found out she liked me, and since i liked her a little too, i asked her out and weve been going out for going on three months now...so yeah, its always been there, but ive just started to notice that i think i still love sally...i mean, i still like beth, but i love sally, and i do stupid stuff when im with her alone....for example, shes got a LOT of guys that like her, and she comes to me for advice on how to get rid of them(she doesnt like any of them) and everytime she tells me about a new guy, or about any guys period, i get extremely jealous, i still cant get her out of my head, and i still feel really shy around her...i know i dont have a chance with her, shed still think it would be too wierd cuz were best friends so ive given up hope on THAT dream...so does anyone know what would help me not get as jealous? i dont want to get rid of her or anything, i just want to make it a little less awkward for me...any help is appreciated...
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Well, This is like 75% of hwat happen to me. Well in my life lession You need to know nothings gonna happen, or anytime soon, and when your nerves/shy you wont stand a chance in 20 years, I went to prom and went out with her twice, I mean she was a 9 out of 10, but what can and will help you if you seek it Is Buddhism,
Now im sure your like...hell no! But let me tell you what it did to me,
It truned me into a player, even tho im anti-sexual for now, I`ve been offered to join 3 girls going at it. Girls like me cuz now i know what to say, Buddhism Cleared my mind and opened it. I have Manic Depression and some contistion starts with a F that makes everyday a pain, Its like being stabed like 3-30 times a day and it messes up my vains too, So i was hurting my self tried to kill my self 4 times and i thank the higher being up there that im alive, So im all alone, the love of my life says she dont like me, im like a brother!!!!! But since Buddhism Its gone, Its not like im holding it in or back or forcing myself to forget(ive tried that!! It dont work!) Its a Philosophy and a religion, But the Philosophy is what gives you the Thranqwillity, Yes i can use a word like that, Ive been in a state of peace for almost 1 year, Have not gotten mad/sad/anything, Ill i felt is very little boredem and Happieness, And im a very logical person, I have to truely belive in something to belive it, And i belive in it, Cuz i know its true. You find out what are the causes of your anger or any other feeling and then Buddhism will show you how to leave those feelings and get stuck in pure happieness, Remember, You will not find happieness if you dont seek everywhere for it, And I will give you a leed to where freedom from anger and sadness and everything between those make up every other feeling you have, besides happieness.
This is the first Buddhism book, It has the words of the First Buddha, Its right to the point and you can take it out and read it anytime, And you might not inderstand the wisdom right away but you will if you do want happieness. Im on Zen and thats like a whole new state of bliss, and at first i never could understand a thing aboot it, but im getting there. If you do look in to it and got some Qustions or need help hit me up, im always looking for reasons to use my wisdom.
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