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Uhm..here's the story...about "turning" Athiest...
Ok, the reason why I personally turned Atiest I think is becuase of my life....I've moved around the world alot, I've seen different cultures...and for myself, I don't even belive in race, we are all human, and I always think...heaven? How can someone judge someone? And how can someone establish all these rules on how one should live their life? I was Muslim, and my family they never made me go to masque or anything...I mean I grew up in a 75% Christian hemisphere, and we always had a Christmas tree, my parents always just wanted us to fit in with people wherever we are at....for my whole life went to masque like ONCE. Also, when I went there, it was like wth am I doing here? Belving in a spirit? And I don't know even any of those things you'r suppose to read...I always found God as another girl in the hallway judging me...and like 2 years ago, I was like I don't belive in God..and I realized I felt this way my whole life...I mean I had so much "drama" (real drama, not just school drama which will never matter later on in your life), i had my mom walk out on me like 3 times, my dad & mom almost getting divorced....all this stupid shit that happened that brought me to be this way...my parents were never forcefull, because it is said that if one doesn't want to go, it doesn't mean anything...and the only people that actually know, is one of my best friends, my best guy friend, and you...the reason why I wouldn't tell people, is because I view life as sciencetology, I think when we die, we just, well rot?? -Because that's the world cycle...and I know they would ask me questions about it, and well, I just couldn't answer them, because the way I feel is very deep about this matter, and I don't think anybody could ever understand of what I feel. I mean, once that I "turned" Athiest, (which was really years ago) I realized all the drama stopped...nobody, not even my parents were fighting anymore, nothing, my life, was GOOD, and I realized long time ago, why would I let something that is said to exist run my life? & tell me if I deserve to go to "hell" or "heaven", and I'm not Agnostic, because I just don't belive, I belive all my life I've felt this way, except that I've never told people, becuase these days, people are too obssessed with what they think is right, rather than to feel what the person would feel, and try to help them out...I mean, one night I was having a convo with my brother about Athiesm, and I told him that I saw a "show" (which was actually what I felt, and I pretended this girl felt...)so I said what would you do if I said I'm Athiest, he was like nothing, I would accept it...so i was glad, my whole family was never religious, they belive but I just don't. And I've felt this way for years now, and finally I'm realizing this is just who I am...I mean somebody can preach to me for hours, about any religion, and I would still not get it, because, well, it all to me seems as if, somebody is controlling you'r life...another girl in the hallway judging me...it's hard to belive in something, and then next in science you learn that humans come from apes/monekys...but...see, I just feel this way...and it's hard to tell people, because it's such a deep, emotional question...thank you so much for your advice..I really appreciate it...17 - F - FL
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Maybe give some free advice about: Spirituality?
Well, you sound much more passionate in your beliefs this time so I'm not going to try and and "preach to you for hours." I just have the following few comments to add to my previous response to you...
I have zero tolerance for hypocrisy and judgmental people that condemn others for being different.
It is a fact that most wars throughout history have been over religious differences.
And unfortunately, most differences are man made interpretations of the same information. And I think this is why people such as yourself, question the existence of God.
However, I personally, DO believe in God. I believe that our world and society would be out of control if there were no beliefs in consequences and ramifications of actions.
However, you are an individual and you must come to your own conclusions.
If you have any specific questions and ever need guidance, I will be happy to try and help you.
Good luck on your own personal journey.
Love, Mrs S
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