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Lost, confused and lonely.
Right now i feel so miserable all i want to do is disapear under the bedcovers and never come out!i really dont know what to do. Ive tried talking to my family but they wont listen, they never seem to have the time for me- tv programs are more interesting than i am.
i just feel so angry and miserable all the time.i hate myself and pretty much always have. people tell me u shud just learn to love yourself, no-ones perfect etc but i cant no matter how hard i try.
i also seem to repel men, everytime one seems interested it seems great for a few weeks then they just dump me like a hot coal and disapear. i just dont know what i do wrong.
theres also the fact that i never seem to be able to get on with my family. every now and again we get on and everythings brilliant...then things go pear-shaped and they have no patience with me.i dont have the best health and i think as a result they have just got fed up with me having something wrong and cant be bothered anymore.it doesnt help that i dont get to see or speak to most of my really close friends very often because they are off doing their own things so i end up having to deal with all this crap by myself.And i think the thing is ive got so used to having to keep my problems to myself over the years i now find it impossible to open up if someone does offer me an ear. i have been doin a lot of thinking tho and if im honest ive always felt like the poor relation of the family i have an older sibling and they always seemed to get on better with my parents than i did. i guess ive always been jealous of that.it was always the 3 of them and then me. they have now moved out and i have more time with my parents but most of the time they dont seem interested in me.
i know i have a lot of problems but i just dont know how to deal with all the stuff that is flying around my head. people keep saying they will help me, like my mum did, but they never do. we lost a member of the family i was very close to several years ago and i dont think i have ever gotten over it, my parents mentioned getting help for me a few times but nothing came of it......i just wonder if anyone hear can help me...
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