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What do i do?..
Okay this is going to be really long..so i have been on and off with my first love from 7th grade im now in 10th..but last summer i moved on and met my 2nd love which i really did love and wanna be with.we were together everyday nothing came in the middle of us..then my dad past away and my first love came back into my life because my family went threw alot when i was with him and he knew my dad unlike my 2 love..so i went to my first love for some help and understanding..my 2 love went outta town the night i found out..my first night didnt leave my side and was there with me for the next few days til i left and went out of town..while outta town both of them would text me sweet things..but i would only talk to my 2 love on the phone at night..on the way home waiting in the air port my 1st love had been textin me all day and told me he wanted to be with me again..but i didnt look at him like that anymore because i was in love with someone else..so i got home and that night my 2 love came over and spent the night with me and just held me cause i hated to be alone..so me and my first love were back to being friends and just checkin up on eachother all the time and making sure we were both okay..so then it came down to get everyone in texas together for my dads thing because we had two one outta state in our hometown then one here for his friends here.and both of my loves were there..which they hate eachother..so i didnt really know what to do..i had my 2 love right by my side.my first right behind me holding my shoulders as i was crying..after that i went out to eat with my family my 2 love came with me..then i went home laid around because i was just really still hurt about it all..then i went to my friends baby shower.i saw my 2 love there later that day..then he went home and i was afraid to be alone and my friend told me to call my first love so he could come be with me so i was okay and could sleep because she had her boyfriend and the baby with them..so i called him and he came over and spent the night with me well since we were gettin close again we both got the feelings back for eachother and we ended up making love..he was my first for everything..we kept it just with us and didnt tell anyone..and that was aug.27th..i was still with my 2 love and was so scared to tell him..so i didnt say anything sep.past and i was having sex with both of them..and by the end of the month i was late..so homecoming was Oct. 1 and i went with my 2 love and we all were with the same people so we were around eachother.then me and my boyfriend left and went home and got ready for the after parties..well he got a call from his dad saying he needed to come home cause the cops were out everywhere.so i went to the party alone and ment up with my girls.and my first love and his girlfriend were there.(this whole time he had been with someone else too)so then they left and he gave me a hug goodbye and said ill call you later..then by the Oct. 3th me and my first love said we werent going to talk anymore and i was okay with that cause i knew i was doing my boyfriend wrong the whole time and i wanted to tell him but me and my first love knew if i told him he would kill my first love..then i just went back to being true then Oct.6th i found out that i was havin a kid..and i didnt know whos it was..so i was mad at myself and just upset with it all.so my boyfriend thought it was his.and started to cry and was happy and said that we were going to get married..and my first love came over to make sure i wasnt lieing and looked at the test and then just asked me who i thought it was but i didnt know..so then it was Oct.10 and i started to get sick and my family didnt know what was going on with me but i would always be sick so my mom took me to the doctor who gave me pills cause i couldnt eat or drink without it comming back up.but i didnt tell the doctor anything.so then what she gave me didnt work so i had to go back and they tested me and my sister found out that i was 7 weeks along.she said she wouldnt tell my mom..so then i was outta school for a few days.(which we all go to the same school)..so around Oct.15st my first love told his girlfriend what was going on and that it might be his.and i went ahead and told my boyfriend which my first love told me not to..so then everything was all messed up and stuff.And my sister told my mom so my mom knows at this point shes hurt and mad but wants me to keep it..then Oct.26th came and i was hanging out with my first love at my house eating dinner and just talking about it all and he just kept saying he couldnt believe that it was happening.so then we went and got juices for me to drink and came back then watched t.v well before i know it my 2 love is calling me and we havent talked since i told him then i freaked out and told my first love he was here so he got up to walk outside to leave and my 2 love is standing there at the buttom of the side walk and then my first love walked up and was like are you mad at me and my 2 love said keep on walkin then my first love said why cant u just forgive me?..and my 2 love was like i said keep on walkin..and i was standin there cause they told me to stay out the way.then my first love turned to me and looked at me and when to get his keys and went to walk off and my 2 love hit him and broke his nose..so they started fighting and i jumped into the middle of it all and got hit and pushed around.and got into it was my 2 love and my first love went to the e.r...so then i started to get sick really bad again and wasnt talking to my 2 love..so by Nov.8th my first love went and they did some work on his nose..and when he got out i went over here..but by this time i had lost my baby and i had been 9 weeks...so now i was really hurt because if i didnt jump in i would have still had it..so i went over there and saw his family and we just all talked.which his dad made his go to the cops and push charges on my 2 love..then around thanksgiving break me and both of them werent talking and i was just working on myself and making myself happy..then after christmas day my 2 love called me and we started talking again and we talked all the way up to Jan.6th...then stopped and then started again when i started going to my new school..and we were on the low cause we didnt want anyone to know.then today outta nowhere he said we couldnt talk anymore and i dont know why..he just said he couldnt but i heard from people at my old school that he was talking to three other girls but i let that go and didnt care but now im starting to think that it was true.and me and my first love are in a fight because we dont trust eachother so nothing in my life seems to be going right but for my new friends at my new school which is really small and everyone knows everyone.and theres this boy that i kind of like and he is really sweet and we hang out this weekend and for once he just held me and didnt want to do anything else which made me feel really good and unpushed into doing more.so now i dont know what to do about anything and need alot alot of HELP!! so please help me out!! sorry this is so long but i was rate HIGH!!
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I'm sorry for your loss! =(
My advice to you though, is to cut out the other 2 guys, but if that is too hard, just keep it as friends. Obviously, if you go back to either one of them, you will have serious trust issues, and you may even feel resentment towards them... also this new guy seems very sweet, and maybe he came into your life for a reason. He may just be able to help you forget about the problems you've had in the past. So, my advice is to put the problems of your past away, and start out anew with this new guy you're talking about.
I really hope that you are doing better, and that whatever decision you make, you're happy!
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wow!! ok well first off.. im very sorry for your loss! and 2nd off.. your loves..if you arent talking to them.. then stick with the new guy.. he sounds pretty sweet and if you feel soo ..right.. with him then.. thats a sign that you definately should stick with him
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I'm sorry for your loss. Your your sake you should just have no contact with these two other boys. Start thinking about yourself and doing things too. Hang out with your girlfriends. It's hard to put things right when they go wrong. Put yourself first. God luck and god bless
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i am SO SORRY that happend to you!!You have to think,everything happens for a reason. Also that the past STAYS past.This new guy,is probably a really good thing.Then again you might need to take a rest from boys,and just have fun with friends!:]Its hard to forget,really hard,but think of a new start.new friends,new school,whole new everything.Maybe you should tell this new boy about what happend,but of course when you get to know him more and after your break.If your 2 love really was talking to three other girls,he probably just couldn't deal with everything that happend and wanted to start over.Your first love has a right not to trust you,and same with you to him.If i were you,im not telling you to do this,but i would call #1 & #2 and say "im sorry this happend,i want to start over with everything,we can just be friends,and i'd like to keep everything in the past." think of how you were befor of all of this and go from there.Just have fun,theres always light after dark :].always.im just thinking of some quoets and sayings that encouraged me when i thought my life was going down,here are some "Who knows what could happen,do what you do just keep on laughin,theres always a brand new day", "In life comes many wild cards,you just have to realize that with every wild card you get you have to force it to do good"
,"if god is willing" im sorry if i didnt give good advice,but im really trying to encourage you here,no matter how bad my advice is XD.i have good intensions :]i know things will get better.be positive :]!!!
and i REALLY mean this when i say
goood luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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