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Long Distance Depression
This is going to be long... sorry!
Last year I had the pleasure to spend the summer with an incredibly awesome guy that I fell in love with. He was so sweet and was always looking out for me. After I started school again in august, I got word that his father was getting transfered to Illinois. I live in Fl. Well, the time came and I told him goodbye. We broke up then, because I didnt want a long distance relationship and neither did he(at the time). It had been a year and a half, and i had lost touch with him. On christmas, he showed up at my door... i didnt even know he was coming! That was a shock!Anyways, He called me a few days later and wanted to go to the movies... so we did. He left 3 days after that and i never got to tell him goodbye. I haven't heard from him since then and it has almost been 2 weeks. He said that he was going to drive straight thru to Illinois because he had to start school again. I am so depressed because i know it was meant for us... but the distance is horrible. We are 1212.16 miles apart! I have no way to contact him. I know he still loves me and I still love him. I am getting more and more depressed every day. I dont want to forget about him... that is not an option. I just want to contact him somehow but I dont want to come off as desperate AND i want to get rid of my depression without having to go to a doctor. Have you ever been laying on your bed in the dark and turned the radio on and you just cry to every song every night until your eyes are bruised? Well, i can say that for the new year (2006) i have accomplished that!
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hey i have turned out the lights,turned on the radio and cried my eyes out before, i think just a few days ago, but i hope i can help...getting in touch with him-maybe your parents have an e-mail addrress or if you're lucky a phone number...just tell them you were good friends if they don't know you went together...in becoming UNdepressed i've listened to hyper songs, exercised,joked and played with my friends, or just day dreamed in fantasy about the way things could be. oh and if he popped up before it definetly may happen again...hope i helped even a lil bit. : /
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I feel what you are saying, Im a guy and believe it or not, ive done the crying after slow songs many times. I been through al ot of bullshit in my life, however, somehow i always manage to get through it all in a better way. I always find that praying is a must, being socially active is also a good way to keep your mind off of things. The way i see it, if its meant to be, it will be. If it isent meant to be, than it will not be, and believe me, something better and beautiful will come your way...Life is funny sometimes,its just how it always is, whenever you feel depressed and like you cant go on...something will slap you awake and make you realize that all the crying and worrying was for nothing cause damn now you are happier than ever.
i hope my words helped a litle..just remember to keep your head up, and remeber that God is always watching after you, and He will not alow anything bad to happen to you.
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"She could've laid in bed for
hours giving misery the power
but she didn't have time."
I think you need to get out and do something. Maybe he will show up again. Ask for his address if he does and you can send him letters and he will send you one back. If he came back after all that time he was thinking about you. Im sure hes thinking the same things you are he might be trying to find a way to talk to you again. Dont worry girl things will be looking up. <33 Good luck.
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