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can't get over depression...
ok long story but i will make it short..
i've been having a hard time this month and my ex whom i hate..i'll call him bob... and my best friend whom i went out w/ for about a month..i'll call him fred... after fred broke up w/ me, bob told me that he still loves me and wants me bak but he treated me like complete shit so of course i told him to fuck off. then bob used my so-called-best friend, i'll call her lilly, to talk to me to get me bak. i told lilly not to talk to bob nemore but she kept doing it behind my bak. and bob threatened me that he'll spread crap about me if i dun stop spreading crap on myspace, when i didn't do nething like that. my house almost got broken into and all my friends think that bob has sumthing to do w/ this but i have no proof. and lilly recenty told me that bob got pulled outta class by the cops and got searched for stalking me. but i didn't tell the cops about bob stalking me so i dunno how the cops got that info. and my mom started to yell at me for no reason 1 day and i was already upset so i snapped and had a mental break down and had told my mother about everything that happened between me and bob. she told me that she might get a psychiatrist for me cause i am mentally scarred but i doubt she will. i really need to hang out w/ fred cause he helps me a lot although he doesn't notice it....fred and i used to hang out so much before we broke up and even before we started dating. he was alwayz there for me even 2 or 3 am when i needed sum1 to talk to and be w/.... he gave me a shoulder to cry on, he made me laugh harder than i've ever laughed before and he could make me smile no matter what...he is what kept me going all this time since high skool started. so basically like 2 yrs cause i've known him since end of freshman year. but ever since we broke up, he never wants to hang out nemore... i was heart broken and felt like i've lost a brother i never had..then there came this guy whom i will call greg. greg gave me advice and was there for me for about a week and a half...he told me he likes me a lot but i told him that i couldn't really be w/ him cause i still had strong feelings for fred...he understood and still hung out w/ me but then all of a sudden stopped even calling me...i haven't seen or heard from greg for a week and he never answers his phone... so i am left alone once again.... i have no1 to be w/ when i'm feeling down and fred isn't there when i need his support most.... so i sit in my room feeling depressed. so i try and hang out w/ my friends to keep my mind off that but no1 is available... i called like every1 this weekend but they r busy or can't hang out and stuff... i feel neglected and avoided every weekend... i want to hang out w/ fred again cause he doesn't even know that he's the only 1 who can save me from feeling like this...but i have a feeling he doesn't even care about me nemore... and now i'm just trying to think of reasons to y i shouldn't kill myself... i regret even existing cause i make every1's life miserable...i even asked fred's friend if he ever talks about me cause they hung out today...and his friend mentioned my name and fred said "let's not talk about her."...... the world is being so cruel to me and i just don't deserve to be happy and i can't take this pain nemore....... i often cut myself w/o me knowing and i'm afraid that i'll do it again netime soon but i dun want to cause i promised fred that i wouldn't... i've never been so depressed and i'm scared..........i'm sry it's really long...
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Hey hey, life is not something to be thrown away. After highschool, you will have a completely new start. You can make new friends, forget about the old and painful, and just start a new beginning. If fred doesn't even want to talk about you anymore, I really doubt that he will want you back. It's best to go the hard way and accept his choice no matter how difficult and painful it may be. Otherwise, you're just like bob- someone who never lets go, someone who clings on only to their lust. Bob is a complete psychopath, and I hope you get proof to get him in trouble with the po. Other than that, I hope you can find a new, great friend who will always be there for you. Why not try to get off on another friendly relationship with my cousin? ... let's call him Byle. I know that he probably never told you this, but Byle loved you very very much. And even though you broke his heart, you have to realize how much courage and love it must have taken him to again accept you as a friend. I hope that you guys get close again, because I feel that a part of Byle still wants to be there for you but is afraid of being hurt. I know that I can't see you as much as I'd like to, but maybe if you hung out with Byle more, he could make you happy again. I know that right now he seems to be as stubborn and icy cold as an ice cube, but if you show him warmth and kindness, I believe that he'll open up his heart to you. Please try to let go of Fred. The only thing that can help your relationship with him is probably the passing of time. I'll give you 10 reasons why Fred is a douche and you should forget about him (and you may not agree with me, but I really hope that you would)
1. He broke up with you (he obviously does not feel that there is something special betwn you and him)
2. You guys only went out for a few weeks (who knows, you might have gotten sick of him! All relationships feel close to perfect the first few weeks)
3. The chief says so (boys are stupid, you don't need them to be happy. NO guy is EVER worth crying over FEMALE POWER! Hoo haa!)
4. He doesn't like talking about you with his friends (he thinks of you as a regret in his past. Why? the world will never know, but apparently, he's an idiot for thinking so)
5. Fred doesn't want to hang out with you anymore (apparently, he doesn't appreciate the value of your friendship, so why should you appreciate his?)
6. If he were such a great guy, why would he hurt you like this? Why would he break your heart knowingly, and then completely ignore you?
7. There are many other guys out there, the more time you spent reminiscing about Fred, the less time you have to find someone who will really love you
8. If Fred were a decent guy, he'd at least try to protect you from Bob...
9. If he doesn't like you anymore, and you can't get over him, isn't that just lusting? I seriously doubt that's the type of person you want to be.
10. Even tho you've only said nice things about him, I still classify him in my list of douches. Why? Because he deserves nothing but a slap in the face and a kick in the balls.
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