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Me Against the World
I feel so alone right now. Right now, it's like everyone is against me. I feel like everyone hates me. My volleyball coaches took me out of the starting lineup and are acting angry. My parents are angry at me. I feel like they are all against me. Am I really that hard to get along with? I don't understand. I drank toilet bowl cleaner today because I felt so bad. It didn't really do anything except burn my throat really badly. No puking or anything though. I know I probably need help, but I don't know where to go. I want to talk to a professional so badly, but who can I ask for help? I don't have any money (I'm only 17 with no job), so I can't pay for one myself. My parents would just tell me to suck it up if I told them. They don't understand. What can I do?
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Hoe about talking to a school counselor...or your pediatrician...or an older friend of the family...or an aunt or uncle. Sometimes it seems like the whole world is against you, but these things happen from time to time. If you don't feel confortable talking to the above mentioned people then perhaps you should submerge yourself into a hobby or get a partime job. You will make new friends and develop something that makes you happy on your own. Also you may forge a friendship with someone new to your circle of friends that may be able to offer support.
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Even though many people will tell you that everyone goes through a hard time, it's hard to believe that when you're struggling the way you are. I think you should try to talk to a school counselor or a teacher who you feel you can trust. If this is not possible, try a hotline. There's 1-800-784-2433 (suicide prevention) or 1-800-273-8255 (Hope line). There are people there 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Alternately, you could go to your local free health clinic or Planned Parenthood. Ask someone there for information regarding low-income or free (sometimes called pro-bono) counseling services for teens, young adults or general public. It is really important that you find someone to talk to because you are a good person with lots to offer and I am sure many people think so. I realize you may be in a small town or worried about your parents finding out, but counselors are generally held to confidentiality agreements, so a meeting would be private. A counselor could also work to help you with any other family or pain issues you are experiencing, in addition to your feelings of isolation. Please take a few moments to contact someone and reach out for help. You never know who around you really does care about you and would be devestated if you weren't around.
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Okay, I want you to know that not everyone hates you. Not at all. I've been through times in my life when I've felt similarly. People seem to show that they care only when they know that you need them to, which sucks, but that's just how most people operate. This doesn't mean that they don't care. They always do, a lot more than you may think. You are looking for professional help and that is amazing. A lot of people are afraid of anything like that or they think that it won't help them. There's probably a counselor at your school or you could even talk to the school nurse or a doctor. Hotlines are always a great idea too. You can get the numbers from your school, or even from the internet. I'm sure that you're an attractive person with a great personality as well as a great athlete and that you have a wonderful future ahead of you. Good luck and I hope that you start feeling better soon!
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