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Okay.. Well... yeah that guy I was going out with for a year.. yeah well over the summer I had kissed a guy, twice. And I was going to tell him because I felt SO BAD about it. And somehow... someone got to him first. I dont know how. But someone did. So he said we could never get back together and he is so disgusted with me and I asked him if he still loved me and he said no. After pleading my case for... over 170 minutes... I asked him if he loved me and he said "I dont know." I was like okay, I know he does. He may be mad but he cant just stop loving me. --skip some time-- We went to the dream cruise together. And when I was sitting in the front seat (another girl went with us and at first she was in front) he jsut gave me this look.. and he like hugged me or somthing... I was liek I KNEW IT... he still loves me. And I was talking to him about it when we were sitting and the girl was off somewhere, and I was liek I would do ANYTHING to take it back, but I cant. So I would and will do anything to be with you. And he said he knew. And he looked kind of depressed... which of course was making me depressed... but whatever. And then I found out a whole bunch of stuff about some other rumors going on about me, like one of mike's friends got the password to my screen name (not that hard it was "ashley" but I changed it now) and so I started crying with him on the phone and he came over and we sat in my back yard talking. And I sat on his lap. And we kissed... several times... I wanted to cry each time I felt his lips touch mine..the thing I wanted SO bad... and I could only have a taste... and then we went over his house and he was cleaning his room for part of the time and then gave up. We ended up watching TV. And everytime we would kiss he would be like "This isnt right.." and everytime I would shake my head no. Not only was it right but it was the MOST RIGHT THING EVER. I need him so bad.. but yeah. So we ended up laying on his bed watching tv, still kissing at times. And in the beginning I would be kissing him and stealing kisses and such.. but after a while I asked him to kiss me, and he would kiss me. He said something I cant remember but I just slipped out "Will you go out with me" or somthing... and I regreted it as I said it. He said that he couldnt. Not after what I did... I wanted to die. I was like YES YOU CAN!! I just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs I NEED YOU DONT YOU UNDERSTAND! MY LIFE IS NOTHING WITHOUT YOU! NOTHING! YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!! I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF THAT WOULD MAKE YOU COME BACK TO ME... I would do anything to get him back.. I mean anything... I love him so much...
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ok well theres nothing really i can do to answer this cuz u didnt give me anything that u wanted me to say but ok ill just guess if u love him like u have told me that u did i dont tihnk u woud have kissed someone else now i know im right on that cuz if u do its once or twice in ur case u might jsut do it again so if u love him like u say then dont do that u hurt by that just like hes hurting u hes tryin to be srtiong but u keep trying to get him back which is fine but its like all u guys do is kiss but yet he wont go back out with u i would have said NEED YOU DONT YOU UNDERSTAND! MY LIFE IS NOTHING WITHOUT YOU! NOTHING! YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!! I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF THAT WOULD MAKE YOU COME BACK TO ME... that to him cuz thats what i would do or say to someone and all he says it juss leave him alone like he needs him space so just give it some time keep talking with him and staying close just stand up for what u belive in and dont give up cuz if u love him im sure i will do what i would do and try ur damn hardest even if it takes awhile its will all be worth it in the end trust me
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