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well... my life is great and i know that but like sometimes i just cant help feeling really sad...like i want to cry all the time and i over-analyze everything around me making everything scarry and bad...and like i started cutting a while ago and recently its gotten worse...like its gotten deep to the point where ill pass out and wake up w/tons of blood all over..and like sometimes ill just take some pills to knock myself out and get away from it all..and like i cant sleep.. i havent in about a week...and i wont eat...i refuse to...i have food and it will make me even more fat than i am right now... but like sometimes ill just sit in my room and ill be real calm and just crying for hours...then suddenly ill like flip and like i will start screaming and throwing things and like i will hate every 1 and everything around me...ill just like loose coltrol and start fighting with myself and slicing open my arm while doing so and like its just gotten so far and so bad that everyone thinks im crazy...even though i make sure not to loose it in front of other ppl...but like my arms are covered in scars...like after one of my episodes the other day i finaly calmed down but couting them and i couted 367 on my arms and 68 on my ankles...like where i live its cool all the time so i can wear hoodies and stuff but its still like omg...i wanna stop so bad but its turned into an obsession and like ill jsut find myself doing it...im scarred that one of these days im gonna go too far and die...even though many many times i have thought about suiside...well there really isnt much n e one can do for me but if you do have any non-cocky non-smart ass answers its much appriciated!
p s ill rate high for really good answers!! thx
♥ rrenef ♥
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yep yep, i been there too.
well, i am no doctor or anything but i have had enough training and experience to say that it sounds like bipolar disorder. simple enough to treat with some medication.
of course, like me most people arent willing to take medication! which a lot of the time i see as a good thing.
now, i'm not going to tell you what you should do, i am merely going to give you ideas and my thoughts because i hate it when people tell me what to do!
when you feel like hurting yourself there are HEAPS of other things you can do! it may not seem like it at the time, but there are. one thing i've found that works is staying around someone for as long as possible. once i asked someone over because i was home alone and was tempted! if you can't stay around anyone go to bed, or have a shower (without sharp objects!). i have a list of 151 things to do if you feel tempted so give me a yell if you want me to send you that.
i think it's only when you realise that life is a gift that you dont want to die. i learnt from a friend who attempted suicide over 8 times and is still alive today, also from my personal experiences.
i always say imagine those people who are in hospital with cancer or something like that. they are fighting for their lives, and you're willing to give it away...so if you're scared that you're going to go too deep one day, well then dont do it in the first place and you're guaranteed not to!
yes yes, easier said than done, but i make an aim. like i say ok, i'm not going to hurt myself for 2 weeks, and i feel so good with myself that after that i dont feel i need to.
well anyways, i wrote a fair bit so i had better stop!!
hope it helped, and just give me a yell if you need anything, k?
Nadia.
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Ok, take a breath. You have already done the "first step" realizing that you have a problem. Now you need to see that people arent perfect. You wont get fat by eating a little morsel of food muchless a whole meal. And being fat isnt bad.
I know it is hard to stop cutting, but if you want to enough you can. Throw out your razors! No one will know if you have hairy legs if it is cool enough. Get into a hobby so you dont have so much time to self-analyze.
Dont think so negatively about yourself. Everyday look in the mirror and tell yourself two good things about yourself. I have to do it. It will help. If this continues though, professional help might be best.
Hope it Helps!
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Melanie
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aw honey
i used to cut and it was getting really bad too but not to the point where you are. cutting is really addictive and i know how it feels when you want to stop and then at times you just don't care what happens and so you do it. I think you should really tell someone about ur problem. where are your parents in all of this? what has been going on to make you do this? try something else to cope your problems w/ like write in a journal or live journal which is what i use and write how u feel if your upset, or you could listen to music or do something you love like a sport or painting or cooking anything or you could talk to someone you reallyy trust like a friend or even a family member like a sibling about how you feel. You really need to start eating its not gonna make a difference if you dont eat, you will just get skinner and people will defiently know your not eating--you dont wana get yourself into that situation. you need help..i got a therapist and she helped me so much and i had my friends and i wrote in a journal and did stuff i liked--although i still have feelings for cutting sometimes and i do but def. not as bad as long ago.
i hope this helps and good luck..
if you everrr need 2 talk to me im here for you!!
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i suggest to you to visit your school conseler. if the school conseler doesnt help, then ask them to help you find more professional help. i know that using the word "more professional help" may make it sound like your a mental case...but i highly recommend it. my friend was just like you. she sought professional help and her life is almost back to normal. but in the mean time, talk to some one close to you, such as a family member or a CLOSE friend. also it might be a good idea to throw away everything that you ever used to cut yourself and anything that you think that you COULD use in the future. for everything that you cant throw away ask someone to hide it from you. but you are on the right track. you realized the problem and you are attempting to try to get help...GOOD FOR YOU!!!
HOPE I HELPED
good luck!!!
~*funkymunky*~
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You are going to be ok, cause you know you have a problem and you're admitting it. But now you have to tell someone else and get help. This life is hard and it is OK to ask for help! You can find someone near you very easily in the phonebook, or even talk to a school counselor. You need to tell everything that's been going on in your head so they can help you the right way. I know that saying you have a problem that you can't handle is probably the hardest part, but remember it is OK - lots of people need some extra help. Breath deep, and put the effort out there to find someone to help you. You said you hide it well, so you can't expect anyone to jump to your aid unless you tell them. Please, please take care and talk to someone soon.
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