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recently, ive been cutting. i cut because i have so much emotional pain, it relieves me when i cut. it makes me forget all about my emotional pain because i focus on the physical pain. well, just this morning, i found myself thinking of suicide. this afternoon during health class too. We were talking about cutting in health class today and i just wanted to die. i was so uncomfortable. only 2 people knew about me cutting in my health class besides me but i still wanted to die. I dont have a boyfriend. I dont think im pretty enough to. My life is fucked up. no one cares about me. my parents are never home and when they are, they just yell at me. They always fight too. But the thing is, i wouldnt trade my life for anybody elses. its the way that i know life. I wouldnt trade it. and im serious. I wore a belly shirt to school a few days ago. Bad choice. some people saw my cut i made on my stomach and they said stuff to me. No one understands me. They think that i have the ideal life and they even tell me that. i dont. every one thinks i am perfect (or have to be) becuase my dad is a pastor of a small hick church... which i hate. I dont believe that shit. w/e. i wanted to stop cutting until today. i did it again today. its just a bad habit. any suggestions? anything anyone wants to say to me?? yes i have contemplated suicide. several times. (link)
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heres the thing about cutting... it relieves tensions and its a way to forget about emotional pain. i used to cut up until like august. it brings nothing but more trouble and more emotional pain. i started when i was 15 and im now 17. You need to stop now before its to late. i ended up in the hospital and get sent to a mental hospital becuase of cutting. i met a gurl there that changed my life and helped me stop cutting. she was my roomate and she was a hardcore cutter. SHe would use steak knives on her wrists and she would cut so deep it was sickening. its like she was addicted to it and she was suicidal, i was suicidal as well. thinking about death is something a lot people do. but not to many people act on it. and no one really should. its all in your head, if you have the urge to cut i advise you to put a rubber band around your wrist and if u wanna cut just snap it on your skin. it helps trust me. and it really is a bad habit. you need to talk to a school counselor about it if you really are feeling suicidal. i really urge you to talk to someone before it gets worse. seriously i cant stress this enough, you always have to think that theres somebody out there that has it 50 times worse than you. think about how much pain your parents and friends would be in if you werent alive anymore. please if u wanna talk you can im me at xtwistedmelon22 or email me at ashc1114@aol.com
i guess thats all i can say to you. good luck and stay strong.
xoxo ash
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I know that this is really long and confusing, but I really need help, so please read this!!!!!
There is this group of 5 girls, and we're not a clique but we are really good friends; Girl 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5. So I will be girl # 3. 1 has just announced to this guy that she likes him. She is veryyyyy shy, and I used to be her very best friend. 2 is now hanging around with all these guys, forming another group of just guys, constantly flirting with them, almost turning into a slut. SHe used to be #4's best friend. 1 and 2 are now revolving their entire lives around this one boy, who really isn't anything special, and are basically ignoring us. One of the guys they have recently befriended is a complete pervert; you can imagine how that makes me, 4 and 5 feel. 1 and 2 are now constantly going to the mall with these guys, but not only that, they aren't inviting me, 4 and 5. Last Friday, we were walking home, without 1, so we were sort of in rows talking; me with 2, and 4 and 5 together (sorry if this is a bit confusing). My house is the first one we stop at, and then 5. 4 recently told me that when me and 5 left, 2 didn't wait for 4 but just kept walking, about 100 ft ahead of her, without even looking back ignoring her. These two girls have been best friends since 6th grade, and this is the first time that this has happened since. Now she is basically ignoring all of us, and walking to school today she ditched us for someone younger than us (1 wasn't walking with us). Why are they so mad? Do they have reason to be so mad?
So far, I think the only reason that they are so mad at us is because we aren't really supportive of them constantly spending time with that one boy and ignoring us. Talking on IM, 1 didn't respond to me because she was talking on the phone to the boy. 2 asked me if she was talking to me, and I said, no, shes probably talking to that boy. She doesn't stop talking to him. Then 2 got really insulted and said, "so? What's wrong with that? I talk to Tom (another boy who is also very annoying and completely perverted) all the time and we're not even going out. Yes, me and 4 know that, and we don't really apporve. She is talking to him so much that she missed a cancellation we had to make, because she was on the phone and we couldn't reach her. 1 also spends all of her time talking to the other boy, at least 5 hours a day, on the phone
Should we talk to them? Or should we just give up on their friendship, as now their lives are completely revolting around these idiot, perverted boys?
I will really appreciate and rate any answers. (link)
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definatly very confusing, but i sort of understand. If i were your i wouldn't stop being friends with them. give them their space. a good friend is supposed to be there through thick and thin. right now things are just a little thick. i have a best friend who i've been friends with since elementary school. and ever since shes been with this boyfriend of hers she completly forgets i even exist. but im still gunna be there. becuase boys come and go but true friends are forever. eventually they will get sick of the boys their with and maybe even find different boys. but they won't forget about you. they just are experimenting with friendships and relationships. give it time. if you feel you've given it to much time. talk to them and tell them how you feel. if they are all mean about it and act like they dont care. thats when you should think about not being friends with them. but i really would wait it out and see how it goes.
hope i helped!
xoxox ash
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I Have been feeling depressed for almost a year now, and I have read nearly all the articles posted about depression, but none of them really help me. I took the first step of talking to a trusted adult, who was one of my former teachers. She tried to help me by calling my mom and referring me to different counselors. But this made my mom very angry. My mom refuses to let me see a counselor, and she is not allowing me to have contact with my teacher either. I don't understand why, but I think it's because my mom feels like I am placing blame on her for my issues. Now I feel so alone because I have no one to talk to. I want to call my teacher, but my mom would be very angry if she found out. What else is there left for me to do if counseling is not an option? I fear I will keep getting more and more depressed like I have been. Please respond to my question, I really need your help! (link)
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ok i'm goin to try and help you the best that i can. to start off i've been depressed for like 2 years, and i am on medication. some people say that medication really helps. well to me i think depressed people need to deal with their problems on their own. Who needs a counselor, when you have yourself. Trust me, i've been to plenty of counselors in my time and most of the time they're bullshit. they ask you the same things over and over again in different ways, like "how does that make you feel?" and stuff like that. but really getting over depresssion is all in your head. Rite now im actaully getting off all of my medication. and you know why? because i have the mentalitiy to get better. Its all in your head. If you think your depressed there are sites you can go on and do surveys and take test to see if you really are. But listen, you really need to be strong! if your mom won't help you theres really nothing that you could do about that. what could help relieve stress and maybe help you focus more on yourself is to try drawing or writing. Its a form of letting out your feelings. or even exercising and staying fit, it keeps your mind from thinking your depressed. im going to wrap this up. just breath relax and focus on your self. dont let people get you down. be happy about who you are because theres always somebody out there that has it 10 times worse than you, be thankful you are who you are. My aim is on my profile and so is my email feel free to contact me if you need to talk.. i'm here for you!
xoxo ash
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Is it gross or weird for a girl with very dark and coarse hair to shave her arms? (link)
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no to tell you the truth, i do it and so do a lot of people i kno. its jus a hassle to deal with becuase you have to shave often. LIke once u start you have to keep goin or else it'll just grow back worse. I usually shave my arms like every 3 days or when ever i seem to notice my hair growing back. I think it makes a gurl look my attractive also, like some guys dont like hairy arms. jus like some gurls dont like a guy with hair in some places. It all depends on how you think you wanna look.
I hope i helped!
xoxo ash
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