Q: Hi,
I might be a bit old for this site. I don't know. I use to come here in my childhood.
I have a personal question and need advice.
I grew up a foster child and from a dysfunctional family.
From the three families, I think I was raised well over all and turned out pretty decent. I'm an introvert so I'd say I'm good at reading people and have a good gauge for what people think.
Throughout my years since childhood I've made friends and lost those friends. Not entire loss for some; some just have grown apart.
I had in my opinion some very close connections. Some of those people wouldn't as much have me as a Facebook friend now.
How could I have been so close at one point in my life and they not care or wonder about me now?
How do you have close connections with people and not want to maintain them later on like family?
Was their interpretation of the friendship lacking love?
I sincerely don't get it.
I loved my friends. Genuinely did and do. My heart doesn't change in that regard. I don't believe in superficial relationships.
Maybe I don't do friendship right?
Sometimes I feel it could be my reputation.
Not that I'm into anything bad, albeit I have had some bad roads at one time.
I see some of those friends with only attractive people as their Facebook friends. I have scars and less wealth. My lip is sort of disfiguring, although some say I only notice it. I can't afford the masks they put on their faces or the adornments they put on their bodies.
Maybe my way of thinking is it like as that last sentence?
Could it be my lack of family or friends that makes people not want to add anything to my low status of relationships? Or in my culture popular psychology is presented with false truths about people when it comes to their lack of relationships? For example, she has no friends therefore something is wrong with her?
For the record, I do have somewhat friends. We'd be closer if I had transportation. I some friends that hold lower status. I guess maybe people have bias to that so I don't take pictures with my lower status friends. I know that sounds bad and it is. There's a secondary reason. I don't want the whole reflection that I'm like them because some of them are sort of into something I don't do. Like I said, I don't really do anything bad.
Am I right? People only care about people if they first meet their standards when it comes to the surface?
Is the world like a rating system like on the show Dark Mirror season 3?
Is maybe my score too low so people wouldn't even considering engaging with me?
I have always had rejection issues. Maybe that, too, has something to do with it.
What should I do? What should I change?
