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Okay. Like, really, I am about ready to just give up on guys. Ugh. So this guy I like right now (well not really anymore) is a complete ahole, I don't even know why I like him. But he really only just wants to feel me up. Everytime I text him or call him, he says he's busy and that he'll text/call me when he's done... he NEVER does. But of course, whenever he calls/texts I should just be ready to talk to him. I don't know... He's sweet, but, what the hell?
Then there was the last guy I liked. I really, really, really, liked him for like two years, but he said he wasn't ready for a relationship. Which I can get because, yeah, I'm young and stuff so I thought we'd just wait till like highschool or something. Yeah well, he moved away. F my life.
And it kind of sucks because my three bestfriends are all insanely pretty, and I mean, I know I'm pretty too, but they're gorgeous. It sucks so bad that whenever we go out, the boys all flirt with them and then they turn to me like a sloppy second. Plus all of the guys at school like me, but they made this like "Top Five Hot Girls" and I wasn't on it. I know its stupid and dumb and immature and I should waste my time worrying about it, but it hurts you know? I love my friends, and they're the best but it's so hard hanging out with them, because all I can do is compare myself and it's all because I have sucky self esteem.
Then there's this other guy that I kind of like right now. But because I'm an idiot, I like threw myself at him. Like I tried to talk to him 24/7 so I looked like a creepy obsessed girl... and well I think I blew it with him which really stinks cuz I think it could have worked. And that whole ordeal really hasn't helped my confidence much at all.
So at the moment, I'm kind of just ready to give up. I think about all of that stuff I just wrote and, God, I feel so pathetic. I feel ugly and gross and unwanted and stupid. What the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I just be happy with myself? Why do these dumb boys' opinions matter to me so much? (link)
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hey, ill just start by saying that the "Dumb boy's" comment isnt very fair. but that boat has sailed now i guess, anyway.
You will find some one soon enough, your only going to turn yourself desperate and needy if you keep this way. im a guy (18) and a couple of years ago i went the same way you did and to be honest giving up on looking for some one has made me happier. but i have alot of things to do in the meantime like go out skating with mates or work in the shop longer. It would be nice to have some one right? but you dont need them to live your own life. have your life to yourself for your i guess your "childhood" years before you start telling yourself that your ready to share that with some one.
Ease up on it, theres plenty of guys out there and at one point they'll like you enough to give you a chance.
I'v been single for 6 years and as pathetic as it sounds, i actually kinda like being alone at the moment. i do get to the point every now and then when i really want a GF but they soon pass because theres really nothing to worry about. iv had girlfriends before and i can have one again if i tried.
good luck, hopefully you see what i meant :)
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Hey thanks. And I didn't mean to offend anyone with that "dumb boys" comment. Of course I know that not all boys are dumb, in fact, most of them are really great but the one I wrote about, you gotta admit, was kind of a jerk. So, sorry if I came off as a boy hater, that wasn't my intention...
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