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I am 15/male.
Its pretty much exactley what it sounds like. Im sick of disapointing my parents. I fail school. I dress so awkwardley that there embarresed to be seen with me. Im a complete total fuck up. I have anger issues. Im always fighting with my mom. I told her i didnt want to be a part of the family, and the look on her face KILLED me inside. They found out i smoke, and my mom didnt do anything except cry. becuase her mom died at like 30 from cancer. Im always getting in trouble with them. Oh and i like men. and i cant tell them that becuase i cant and i wont deissapoint them more. Im sad to say that the easiest way to get through this, is to kill myself. Im not really looking for advice. Im kind of just venting to anyone who cares. :(
Sincerley,
Me.
Please know that there are people who care about you, people who would miss you if you were gone. I think you should read this, it helped me when I felt like it was the only way out.
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
I'm sure your parents want you to be successful, and I believe you that they may be disapointed sometimes, but they still love you. I've felt exactly like you did, like I couldn't get anything right, like I didnt have a handle on my own life.
I think you should give more thought to coming out to your parents, I don't know them, so I cannot say how they would react, but if you feel they would be disappointed but still accept you, then tell them. They may not approve, but remind them that you are still the same person, still their son.
You said it yourself, "the easiest way to get through this, is to kill myself" well don't take the easy way out. Life is something worth fighting for, don't ever forget that.
I care and I am willing to talk to you online if you would like. I'll listen to you and try to help you out. Either drop a question in my inbox or instant message me on aim. My screen name is wishes count.
Kate
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