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Q: Well I didnt know what section this would go under cause im not EXACTLY sure what im asking for but I need help. THIS IS GOIN TO BE REAL LONG! well last night I cryd myself to sleep. I was basicly crying to god. I kept saying like "why cant I be happy, why, why cant i be happy. Just let me be happy please. Let me be happy or let me die." and now that i think bout it im kinda scared cause ive been suicidal before and ive had cops called on me cause I was gona kill myself but i thought i had stopped.. ( you probly think im a crack head.) anyways. Ill fill you in on why i was crying. 1st in April my dad, my god father died. He was like a second father to me and I really miss him. He was shot a fiew years ago and it paralized him his body slowd down ahd he died. Also a few years ago my cousin was murderd. also my bestfriend in the world is moving and ima have no life without her (if she reads this ima feel stupid) and also cause I feel like im not special to anyone and I really wana be special to someone. and I want someone to hold me when im crying tell me its ok im here for you. someone to love me. ( aka a guy) there was only one guy that made me feel special but he ended up being a player and after a jack ass to me.. for so long ive felt not special :( and I just wana feel special. Theres one guy in the world that makes me feel special.. the problem is he lives hours horus miles miles away! ive never met him so you prob thing im queer but he is my friends friend. And he makes me feel like something. but like he lives for ever a way and i cant wait like for ever years to finaly see him! and I just dont know what to do. Im not sure what im asking for exactly but can you please help me! ive spent the hole day in my room crying. and thats when I decided I would try and get some help with whats wrong. so please help?
love maddie
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Maddie...
well i read the other answers and i think they gave ya a bunch to go on. i just wanted to say that you and me both know that all that shit sucks. im sorry i cant really feel ya on losing your dad and all but i know what its like to wanna be special to a guy and all and to feel like youre worth nothing to anyone. and my best friend has left me to create a knew life too. so until you can find someone to talk to or who can really help you remember something you loved to do before all that happened and go do it when ya feel bad. or maybe write ti all down. write a book on your whole life story. its alrite to cry too.crying is better then killing yourself even if it deosnt feel that way sometimes. if you tell yourself over and over that everything is gonna be okay you'll actually start to beleive it. trust me. and im so glad you admit you need help. some people refuse to and thats what kills them. you'll be fine. eventually someone from somewhere is gonna love you more then you can imagine. and all the guys you had wished you had will be nothing. just keep your eyes open.
im sorry if i didnt really help i just thought i would let ya see my opinion.
you will be fine. just hang on to what little you can. and in the end you will be happy you did. i promise.
**Love Sarah**
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alrite if ya wanna know anything then simply ask and i will gladly tell.
i definately like to assist people. i have for a very long time. some say im good some say i suck. but whatever you can decide for yourself.
Sarah Elizabeth......
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E-mail: Gender: Female Location: md Occupation: im a student Age: 14 AIM: Member Since: December 30, 2004 Answers: 49 Last Update: July 29, 2005 Visitors: 5850
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