I just broke up with my boyfriend of 4 months a few days ago. I initiated it and thought I was able to get through it fine since I believe that I've never actually loved him as much as he loved me.
When I broke it to him on a Friday, he did not want to accept it and so I ignored him. I texted him on Saturday morning, urging him to say yes and agree to it since I'm hoping to find my closure too. He called me and we talked over the phone and I said very hurtful things to him. I told him about the two guys who tried to hit on me while we were still together and I admitted that I played along with them and did not make it a point to them that I was attached. (I still feel very bad about it but it was the period of time when we quarreled very often). He accepted it and said that he would still come over to my house to fight for me since he said that I didn't cheat on him. And yes, I've never cheated on him. During the phone call, I didn't know why I said all those hurtful things, but perhaps it was my own way of pushing him away. Then, he said something that ticked me off (I can't even remember what) and I hung up the phone. He tried to call several more times and I declined the call.
His mother called me afterwards and started screaming at me. And this was really the straw that broke the camel's back. After which, my mother called back to scold her and I never heard from him again. As a form of closure, I sent him an email but he has yet to reply. Right now, I'm feeling like I'd give anything to get back together with him because I know I will never find someone who will love me that much. (I know this is really selfish on my part too).
I can't text him or call him now since I think his mum will check his phone and my parents forbid me to do that since they think that this guy isn't worth it. also, I believe that if we tried to get together gaian, our parents would strongly disapprove which makes me feel like there's no way this relationship can go on.
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