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in a relationship with a lot of weird shit to it, please help
So this is gonna be long, but please stick with me, because idk where else to go. Okay so im 16/f. This year in hs I took engineering. I took this because it fills the requirement I Need for a career life class..so its starts last year when im scheduling and I want to take computers to fill that requirement, but my mom convinces me to take eng.. a class i have no idea about, im not good at building or math, i have anxiety about doing new things and I Never usually take my moms advice..but I did this time. So fast forward to the beginning of the year, and i enter that class, and im the only girl in there, and im scared and quiet and awkward as shit. I barely know anyone in that class..and this kid..who happens to sit on the other side of the table from me, facing my way, starts staring at me..then starts talking to me..and sitting next to me on the comps..and it kept forcing me to talk to him although i was so shy and awkward and didnt wanna talk..and hes the only one that took so much interest in me in that class..so then we start texting and messaging, and hes so sweet and he asks me out and I say no. Because at first i didnt like him like that, and i didnt wanna bf, i cant really hangout and do normal things, and i was scared..but i couldnt explain to him all those things so he kept talking to me and kept trying..and id always avoid his questions about hanging out and all that..and then one day he decided to talk to our mutual friend about how he doesnt know if im friend zoning him and hes worried about it..and she told me and i felt so bad and I talked to her about it, and she made me feel comfortable enough to tell him why i was avoiding his questions and why i wouldnt go out with him. And i was so terrified, but in the end he was really understanding about it and still wanted to be with me. And i had started to like him..and i was really torn about if i should go out with him cause he always wanted to hang, but i couldnt..but then one day he texted me..tomorrow we should kiss and if we do we'll be official..and if we dont then i wont bother you anymore. I was so nervous..this shit has never happened to me before and ive ALWAYS been to scared to take risks, remember that. But i was like fuck it. And now we're together..and its almost been a month. And i honestly believe this relationship happened for a greater purpose and it was meant to be, ya know? Ik thats stupid but everything that happened, and lead up to our being together all adds up and is just too weird to be a coincidence..ive never known this kid before and suddenly hes there? Wtf? It started from me going with engineering, me starting to talk to our mutual friend again over the summer, him talking to this girl over the summer who gave him the balls to even start talking to me in the first place, him starting to talk to our mutual friend that helped us get together..and im a Christian and hes an atheist and he doesnt believe that theres a greater purpose to this..but i really really do. Cause this relationship was something i never wanted or expected but it happened. Does anyone have thoughts on this? Am i crazy or..? Ah! And also hes been seeing this number a lot everyday for the last couple of months and thats around how long weve known each other. And idk what that means but ik it means something! Ah please help im sorry this is long i just ah dont know.
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God will use anyone to be a messenger or part of a learning experience for you, the person need not be a Christian. Is there a reason you've met up with him? I can't say what it is but from what you wrote, a possibility might be to help you not be as shy and gain some confidence.
There is a saying I have read, first time I saw it was shared on FB, author unknown but it attempts to explain different reasons why people come into our live for a short time or a long time. Here it is:
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .
Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount
of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said
that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
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