It's an illness like any other in the sense it must be treated for you to return to thinking of yourself correctly and live normally. You should really tell someone about these thoughts and visit an ER and have a doctor figure out what's going on and provide counseling and medication to get you functioning better.
That's what I know you should do as this thing intensifies and could become a crisis if left alone. You love your family and friends and are seeing glimpses of their love in return but depression is like looking through a dirty window pain at yourself and not seeing the real image--having been there. Do yourself the ultimate favor and speak out to adults about how you have been feeling and be brutally honest. They'll help. [ solidadvice4teens's advice column | Ask solidadvice4teens A Question ]
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