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What is this inner confliction of mine?
Let's start here; Basically my mom is not in the best of health right now and she is out of work for quite a while. Been busy taking care of her and everything including chipping in what I can when it comes to money. Well I got an early birthday present and it was nice. She gave me $200 which I thought was funny because most of it is probably going back to taking care of her.
But anyways I have this friend of mine who was in debt for a while and needed help, other wise his debt with the bank would increase again this week. I was kind of hesitant to help him out because he doesn't have a job, best he gets is $20 a week allowance. He had this friend who was supposed to help him with it, but she never showed up, twice in a row in fact and it was already the end of the week. So then I decided to use the money my mom gave me for my birthday to help pay off his debt. He was really grateful and everything, promised to pay me back by saving up every week too.
But thing is why don't I feel good or happy about this good deed? I have a job myself, the pay and hours suck greatly but I manage it. I just don't know why I don't feel good about what I did? Is it because my mom is sick and not working? My jobless friend? What is this not-so good feeling I got?
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I could assume it's because you're just not happy. You're giving all your time to your mom and now more to your friend. You have nothing for yourself. You spend your time worrying about other people, working, and helping others.
It's not a bad thing at all. It's really good but that's probably why you're feeling this.
You're probably not feeling bad because of what you did, you probably just feel bad because that was the $200 your mom gave you, for yourself but you're using it for someone else's problem.
Anyways, my advice is to find time for yourself, to think about yourself.
Maybe put a little money aside for yourself, to spend on something you want or go do something one day when you could get the chance.
It's important to care about yourself.
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