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Broken hart
Y is it that having a broken hart can destroy your life ?
Y do we get so close to someone only to let ourselves be hurt ?
Y do we feel as if we are the only ones on this earth to feel this way ?
I myself have gone through this pain of losing someone I love and feeling like there's nothing for me to live for , when I got dumped by my Fiancée she dumped me over a txt message on the phone after being together for almost 3 years she couldn't even say it to my face :(. I was a grate boyfriend and I looked after her a lot she had a lot of issues and she never really loved me the way I loved her she would flirt with other guys in front of me and contact her exs behind my back knowing they wanted to sleep with her. She did a lot of bad things to me that upset me and depressed me , I am 24 and she was 19 turning 20 . She used me because she knew how much I loved her and that I would do anything to make her happy even if that means giving up my happiness . I sold my motor bikes that I loved ,to take her on expensive holidays everything , we brought a new car together and motor bikes heaps , when she left me she took everything the car the bikes , my hart :(. She left me just the engagement ring that was it not even a expiation for y she dumped me . We worked together side by side and that was very hard for me to come to work and see her all happy while I was sick depressed and upset I loved her so much I wanted to have a life with this girl kids and b a family :(. I would try talk to her and she would tell me to "fuck off and get over it you will find better " I was devastated she even come back up to me and said I will give you another chance and I was so happy I when to the shops and brought her flowers and candy as soon as I got back she said "um can we just be friends first" and I was confused ? We were never friends and she said she was giving me another chance ? Then I told her "we were never friends you know that and u told me you was giving me anther chance half hour ago ?" She said " we I am leaving town next week so ........" I said "so what's that mean are we still together are we going work this out ?" She just said she had to go back to work and walked off then txt me and said I am out so there's no you and me . She played game with me and burned me got my hopes up to shoot me down I left work that day and quite I told my friends at work I am leaving now . They were shocked and angry with my ex that because of her I was leaving . She found out and come back to my place after work and told me don't go I love you , but I knew it was just another act she played with me and hurt me so bad , I always told her that "don't ever lose me because when I am gone I am gone for good " and I told her that night as I was leaving my room "good by my love you will never see me again " as I walked away trying to hold my self from crying I left her there crying as she watched me slip away . I left my hole life behind and I had a good job everything but because of that brake up I lost it all . It's been 6 months and I am currently living with family I am unemployed as its hard to find work here in taz and I have no fiends here I do boxing to help with my emotions and I have had a very hard time getting over the past with my ex love . She still try's to contact me and tell me how she loves me and that there's heaps of guys who want her but she only wants me , I know it's all a act to her and that she dosnt really want me but I still love her I don't trust her and I try not to let her hurt me but I still love her I always will . I know. Things are tuff and that it seams like u can't go on without them but you are wrong you can , and we are the better ones here we are the ones that cared so y should we let ourselves suffer for them ?? We may get knocked down but we still have more fight in us and we should use it to help ourselfs . Yes it's going to b hard to get through it but we can do it , killing yourself means nothing to them they might b sad for 3 weeks or so then they back with someone ells like you didn't matter so think about it hurting yourself isn't hurting them ok it's hurting you and your family and friends . If you ever need to talk to someone this is my email beaubo1988@hotmail.com
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This broke my heart to read :'( I seriously cried hearing this story. Im so so sorry you lost her and she turned on you like that. Ive been in a similar situation when someone just toyed with my head and one moment told me he loves me and the next said he hates me. I hope things will get better for you. It takes alot of time to recover from something this depressing and sad. Im sorry you had to go through something like that. You shouldnt have to suffer and you deserve much better than her. I know you still have feelings for her, but its best if you try to find someone new or surroud yourself with great friends who will help you through it. As for unemployment, dont worry if you look hard enough, Im sure you will find great job offers. Im not sure what else to say but if you need any more help or just want to express yourself, you can always inbox me :) I really hope this helps and just try to stay strong and get your mind off her.
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