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Best way to kill myself while everyone is asleep?
Let me start off by saying I'm fifteen.
I'm an only child and I'm homebound, because I get panic attacks when I go anywhere near the school. I'm very lonely being by myself at home [my dad works and my mom has an immune disorder, so she's upstairs asleep a lot.] I want to go to school, I want to be with my friends, and I want to be in a natural classroom setting.
I feel like I'm going no where in life. All my close friends are what I want to be; smart, good at acting, fun... And it makes me so sad that I'm not as smart as them.
Tl;dr : I need a way to kill myself without waking everyone up.
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Maybe give some free advice about: Mental health?
Not one of us will answer this question for you. We will however tell you how to live. How to get treatment for the depression your are feeling and reacting to and how to get treatment for the panic attacks you are having.
The way people write can tell me a lot about just who or what a person is. I have been answering questions on this website for many years. It has gotten to the point I can tell a lot about a person just from what and how they write to us. The content of the question is not a reflection of who they are.
From your righting it is easy to spot that you are lonely and depressed, in fact you say you are lonely. You also say you want to be smart. Your writing tells me you are smart and by continuing your education you will become better educated and smarter in the process. You said it differently but this is what I read into what you have written.
This does not sound like someone who really wants to end her life. Let me help you get the help you need with Panic Attacks and the Depression it is causing. It may just be the other way around the depression is causing the panic attacks. I'm not a doctor so I can't say which is coming first.
First do not be concerned with whether you have insurance or not. There are safety net programs in place to cover medical costs for young people your age.
Doctors do not know just what causes panic attacks, they have theories and treatments but are not fully aware of the cause. Depression they know plays a part.
If your panic attacks are the type that start with leaving the house then what I would like you to do is pick up the phone and dial 911. Tell the call taker you need help. That you have panic attacks that are keeping you home bound and you are thinking of killing yourself. They will send help to you.
If you are able to leave the house then please go to th nearest hospital emergency room. Tell then basically the same thing that panic attacks are causing you to want to kill yourself. They will see to it that the proper doctors and treatments are rendered to you. If you or your parents are uninsured, under-insured or cannot pay for your share of the cost. Then as I said above their are programs in place to care for young people like you so that is not something for you to be concerned yourself.
I have suffered from depression myself and understand how scary it can be. I can also understand how it might trigger panic attacks. I am recovering from my depression and I see things in a very different light then I did when I was deeply depressed. Please listen to me when I say there is help. Suicide is not an option it is the wrong solution. Help is the option and is the correct option to a workable solution.
You are a bright smart young lady with her whole life ahead of her so please either call 911 now or go now to the emergency room and get help.
Please write back and let me know how you are doing. You can use the private message option.
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