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Hey, I havent messaged you since like december. I had the exbf who lived far away and was on drugs and i could never get over him? I sent you quite a lot of different questions. I hope you remember.
But the reason I am back is way different then when I stopped asking for advice. When I came back up to college, he called me 2 days later to let me know that he was going into rehab. I told him I was really proud of him and would support him whenever he needed me. I didn't talk to him for like 2 weeks and I assumed I wouldnt be able to until he got out. But the rehab wasnt as strict and he talked to me like every night for a month after those 2 weeks. It was like we were falling in love again. Our conversations would go for hours and just joking and not talking about anything serious and then he started talking about coming up and visiting as soon as he could. Then on valentines day it all changed. He started calling less and less and then that day he told me that he didn't want me to think of him as my boyfriend and that he was going to need time. I immediatly started crying before I had time to think of it and he assured me that I was a really important person in his life and he really wanted to be with me eventually. But he wanted to build our relationship back up and have more to start on. I began to see that he was right but my doubt comes in and I started getting really upset.
Then 2 weeks ago I went down to where he lives (6 hours away) and we had plans to see each other. He cancelled saying he thought it was too soon to see me and didn't want to confuse me. But later on in the week he remade plans with me and we went to the beach.
At the beach I felt amazing again. He kept telling me how much he loved me and would talk about marriage and all this crazy stuff. Like 6 hours later he started saying how bad he wanted a cigarette but he left them at home. Then he said he really needed to go home. Then its like out of nowhere we got into a fight. He told me to move on and lots of other hurtful stuff. But that was after I was pressuring him for a while and picking at our fight. We ended by like making up and him saying that he sometimes thinks hes not good enough for me but he really wants a long and happy relationship with me but he just needs time.
So i went back to school and have completely tried giving him space. He texted me just saying I love you like 10 days after I got home. And then I started texting him every couple of days. Now yesterday he said he was ready to come visit the 13th of april. I kept asking if he promised and stuff and he said yes I love you.
This doesnt sound like a bad story. I mean the guy I can never get out of my head wants to marry me and is finally ready to have a relationship again. The problem is I have HUGE doubt. I'm so scared that he isnt going to come up. And this is a huge deal to me because I need to see him if he wants to be with me. I can't help but think that if I dont text him and pressure him to buy the ticket then he wont come. This is such a horrible feeling!! Im not sure how to feel and I think I am falling into a deep depression :/ I wish I had more self worth so things wouldnt bug me so much
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I am just now reading this! Almost two years later and I am so sorry! I would love to know how everything went and how everything is going for you now? But reading your post I wouldn't be surprised if your ex didn't show on the date you guys had scheduled. I really hope for the sake of your heart that you are in a much better place either with or without him! Hopefully I'll get to hear from you soon.
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