|
I'm afraid to kiss him?
Sorry if this is lengthy, but I need advice!
Alright, so me and this boy are sophomores in highschool. He's liked me since 7th grade, and we dated over this past summer. I broke it off because after 3 months of being together, he didn't try to make a single move! We didn't hold hands, kiss, or anything. A hug here and there, but that's about it. Now, a couple months after I broke up with him, he dated this girl for about a week, and kissed her inside of 3 days! Here's my first question.. why didn't he kiss me? When I saw they were dating, I realized how much I still like him. (As a side note, the first time we dated, half the time I really liked him, and the other half I could have lived without him. I'm pretty sure it was just dumb teenage hormones doing that, anyway.) But I decided that I lost him, and I couldn't just stand back and watch them go out when he made and gave me a CD with songs that remind him of me, like Smile by Uncle Cracker, Dreaming with a broken heart by John Mayer, and Not over you by Gavin DeGraw. It held my lucky number of songs, 9. And then I knew I couldn't just sit back and watch him with someone else when we both knew what we really want. We both had our wakeup calls that I think we desperately needed, and right now we're doing a trial week. Yesterday in school, he pulled me aside and said he wanted to give me something. I knew it'd be a kiss, and made an excuse as to why I had to go, and took off. I don't know why I did that, because I've wanted him to kiss me for the longest time! Again, right after school, he asked me to step aside with him and I said I had to go see my sister, to which he got upset (as he should have) and left. I've got no idea why I seem to be unable to go through with it, but I want to! All for the rest of the day I was giving myself forehead slaps in exasperation. I had two chances to get my long awaited kiss, and gave each of them up. Why, do you think? And how can I fix it? I told myself before the second time he tried yesterday, that I would do it even if I didn't want to, just to get it out of the way. I couldn't make myself. I know I don't like PDA that much, but I also don't think its that big of a deal. What do I do?? As my third and final question, should you be able to picture yourself kissing someone? Because when I try to, I can't picture myself kissing anybody.
As a recap, my questions are:
Why didn't he kiss me in the 3 months?
Why don't I "want" him to kiss me, or why won't I let him?
How can I fix it?
And should I be able to picture us kissing, or doing anything intimate?
Thanks for taking your time to read this!
[ ]
Want to answer more questions in the Relationships category?
Maybe give some free advice about: Love Life?
1.) He may of been shy to kiss you because it seemz you guyz are pretty close.
2.) Right now your probably thinking you can do it and stuff but then it happens and you get all nervous and afraid so just stay open minded and you'll be able to just enjoy it because it's always magical.
3.) there's no way to fix it but take a risk and dive for that kiss <3 Just dont be afraid because there's nothing that can stop you.
4.) If you picture you guys kissing it means you really do want this kiss so sure if you want to, then go for it.
Have an awesome kiss <3
]
More Questions: |