You cut because you are depressed and anxious; you want to feel something that you are not feeling. Until we can help you with whatever is scaring you I'm going to offer you an alternative to cutting. It is something psychologists use when helping people with anxiety.
Find yourself a big thick rubber band and let it hang loosely from one of your wrists. When you have the urge to cut snap the rubber band instead until the urge to cut passes. This is safer than cutting and will help relieve the anxiety attack you are having.
Like I said without knowing the problem it is hard to offer a solution. You can write back in a private message which means only I and the moderator of this site can see it, no one else.
There are only two things I can think of that can make you this scared to talk to your mother about. You have either been raped or are pregnant or are pregnant as a result of being raped.
If you have been raped, define rape as any force used to have sex with someone, do not blame yourself. Nothing you did or didn't do caused you to be raped. There is plenty of help we can offer on how to handle this.
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