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Regaining my confidence.
I haven't felt as if I lack confidence in a very long time. I've been with my lovely boyfriend for two years now, and he's always telling me he loves me as I am, and I can sincerely see that he does love me and my body the way I am.
I'm not overly-confident, but I'm happy with myself (most of the time) and I do get checked out and complimented every now and then.
However, I recently discovered that he watches porn about twice a week or so; at first I found it hard to cope with- but now I've gotten over it. I know he's looking at the sex- not the girls themselves. And he has reassured me that he loves me and he's not looking for something else or someone else.
I've known throughout our whole relationship that he's into boobs. I'm myself a small C, but I like my boobs, and he seems to be liking them too.
But then I was using his laptop the other day and his latest torrent search was just "boobs" (showed up when I typed in the torrent address myself) and since then I've felt a little lacking in confidence in myself. I don't have big perfect boobs. I also don't have a perfect body to look super cute in everything and so on. If I've spent the night with my boyfriend, I generally wander around in my undies and then a t-shirt or a hoodie. My boyfriend seems to find this sexy and he'll say so too. But after coming across a Tumblr page that had a lot of artsy-type pictures of girls in their underwear, etc, it really has made me feel like my body is horrible and I'm definitely far from being as confident as I was maybe a week ago.
There's been no change in my boyfriend, my friends, or the people around me. Just today a man asked me for my number and told me I'm pretty. But I still can't help but feel so imperfect and well..boring..ordinary. Hard to find a word to describe how I feel.
How do I get back to my fairly confident self, and learn to love my body again? I hate feeling this way...
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I really, really wish I could answer your question. Unfortunately, I have the same issue. My boyfriend watched porn, and I would get so upset! It literally hurt my feelings because I'm most definitely not close to perfect, and lets face it, they are checking out the women. There's no way he's watching porn without checking out the women. Without getting into too much detail, I just want you to know you're not alone. I sincerely hope someone provides you with the answer you're looking for. In the meantime, know that you're not alone, and many women can understand you. Good luck, and sorry I can't answer your question!!
Uniq
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