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Emotionless and alone
Im a 16 y/o male
I started to feel less and less, emotional since i was 11 and im now emotionally "dead." I have never told anyone because they'd think i was crazy or depressed. So i hide behind emotional "masks" living each day just for the sake of living. i can count the number of things that i might care to do on one hand, and its like i have to be constantly on guard. physical stimulus doesnt work either, im able to simply ignore pain and arousal. Im wondering if this can be reversed or im stuck like this. any advice is appreciated
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I have and still am going through the same thing. I still can't feel deep emotions. I never really even started feeling others emotions either. I pretty much put up a mask to make people think I am "ok", but every once and awhile the mask slips and certain people catch on. It's hard to keep friends when they figure me out but if you keep the mask up you get better at it. I never let anyone get close. when people ask me things i generally turn the conversation into talking about them. Its easy people love talking about themselves. Plus just act happy around your parents. They will probably think you are crazy. If you want a doctors appointment make up another excuse. Surround yourself with people who can express their emotions and just play the part.
I've seen doctors and they havent really given me a reason as to why I am like i am, but that doesnt mean they can't help you. they said I do have some brain chemical imbalances, but nothing for sure. Im told its more likely a personality disorder. It's rough but you get used to it. Another thing I find that helped to tell 1 close friend about it. I mean you really have to trust them. My one "friend" constantly covers for me and it has made social situations considerably better. I have found its better no knows me to well. Some are fascinated and others think I am a freak.
Not to sound even more insane, but there is a girl that for some reason whenever im around her I begin to feel. It's awkward because im not sure what im feeling. I think I was nervous but I havent felt emotions in along time so its hard to remember what some are.
If you can get help from a doctor good, but in case its something you can fix there's some tips on how to make living socially a tad easier. Last alcohol DOES NOT HELP. It feels good, but does not help.
Good luck
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I know exactly how you're feeling. I'm going through something similar. It's hard to reach out when you feel like you're drowning and parents aren't always the best people to talk to. You don't know me and that might make it easier for you to confide in me. I would hate to think you reached out for help and got ignored. I will listen to you. Btw I'm a 21 y/o female
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I'm old enough to be your grandfather and your letter concerns me.
I can assure you crazy you are not. What concerns me is who would you be worried about thinking you were depressed. Depression in adolescents entering puberty is generally an hormonal imbalance brought on with the onset of puberty. Of course t age 11 you would not have none this and may not realize this even at age 16. In general most depression has nothing to do with being crazy and more to do with 2 chemical secreted within the brain to manage depression. It is for this reason, the secretion of the chemicals within the brain, that most people associate depression with being crazy. Hopefully now that I've explained this to you I have dismissed the thoughts of any type of mental illness.
Fortunately you can start feeling better rather quickly. You start by sitting down with your parents and telling them how you feel. Right know they probably feel this is some type of teenage phase you are going through and you will grow out of it. As they have no other reason to think otherwise this is the only thing they can think. You need to to tell them what is going on with you and how you feel so they can help you.
Next; is a visit with the family doctor. You are old enough that you can be examined without mom or dad being in the exam room with you. You are also old enough that the doctor by law must keep you medical confidentiality. Meaning anything you and your doctor discuss stays between you and your doctor. Your doctor cannot tell anyone anything about your medical visits or treatments without your expressed written permission. This is written in a law called HIPPA.
Your doctor will most likely want to do a complete physical just to rule out any other physical reasons for you feeling as you do. Then the doctor will either prescribe medication for you or refer you to another doctor for treatment.
The other doctor will be a psychiatrist,no as I said you are not crazy. Since the chemicals you are lacking are secreted in the brain a psychiatrist is better qualified to prescribe and treat depression. Most likely this doctor will only prescribe the medication and monitor you by what is called med. checks.
Talk therapy is the best treatment for this ind of depression to help you find the stressors that are causing the depression. Here again the therapist cannot say anything to anyone about what goes on in therapy without your written consent.
The medication, if prescribed, will take a few weeks to fully kick in as it has to build up within your blood stream just like tho hormone it is subsidizing. as it does you will start to feel better.
How do I know all this? I too suffer from this type of depression. It was brought on by a bad car accident and the physical results of the accident that I must live with.
So talk to your parents and arrange to see your family doctor. There is help for how you feel.
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