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what do you think of these writings?
debating on whether to show these to the muse. im not looking for edits(im happy with what ive written), just opinions on how they make you feel, and if they seem deep enough. also, they might be confusing bc theyre written about personal situations..ps, only in high school (; These are peices ive had saved on my labtop for about a year and this is my first time opening them in awhile. perhaps show me your favorite, or generally what i could improve on, thanks. (again, i know there is many type o's and errors. butits late and i just wanted to get this out.)
You say you’re a cheater not a liar,
Then why do you not even bother
With all the people you said you needed
And all the places you said you wanted to be
Preferably, with me.
I stood there watching your white van roll away
With my damsel in distress heart with it
As I hear yout tires speeding up, I also hear my heart slowing down
With one last kisson the lips, you whispered
youd come back
And the time would be short,
If I keep you in my heart
Will I stay in yours?
Cause I know this story
I know the tragic ending
oF the poprock princess and the rockstar
Traveling to each new kingdom
Only to find a new fair maiden in each one
Just say it isnt like the rest
That im just not another girl
Don’t give in to the flow
I know it’s different
I know we’re different
You can’t deny the chemistry
Or the things you do to me
You said you never meant to get this far
And that my heart wassn’t a thing to mess with.
Stay with me , we can be magnificent
We can make things everlasting and terrific
We can show the world new things
And lighten the world day by day
Like white does on black.
And come into my arms
You know I need you mre than
Ive ever needed anybody
I just don’t want this to be the last time
I can feel my heart beating.
Remember back to the times when I was your only comfort
And you were the only one in my heart
Come back to the time where it was just you and me
Standing on the old dirt path
Clutching your arm so tight, begging you not go
I should have known this is it how it ends
Tear stricken face, and body so vulnerable
You did your best to get out without fumble
Come back t me, its where ive always wanted tyou
Come back to back to me you know I need you
If you just had the strength to follow your heart
Im sure we wouldn’t be this far apart
So bring in the phone calls, and the ever lasting texts
Youll only remain in my brain, so complex
Farther in distance day by day
But closer in mind as you fade away
Before your gone forever
Tell me one last time
How you wish you could stay and you could be mine.
You left me broken, on the old dirt path
With nothing but your shadow
My arms were trembling and my face was leaking
How could you just walk away.
Its 3 am and of course its you on the other lilnle
Expressingyour exhilaration and happiness of the show
Longing for your hug,
Or just a moment with you
I smile and tell you how proud I am
Making jokes, and living in the moment,
Traveling the country with each passing day
A phone call is all I get, an explanation of your day
Or maybe just a drunken recollection of your past
What happens when these calls stop
Am I left with nothing?
the next 2 are kinda of similar-
But then it hit me, and I realized that these minutes with him were numbered.; quickly decreasing with each passing breath. Trying ot gather my thoughts was useless, I was to marveled by his perfection. His touch, words, stance, smile. Everything seemed to come all tgether. And when he touched me, we blended into one. But then we started kissing again, and I wasn’t even sure hwo started it this time, only that he was holding me stable, being the support net that I truly needed more than anything else.He held me tight, tight in a little bear hug that I loved. We inched apart and then kissed again, and again. I knew I had to let him go, but how do you let the one thing that makes sense walk out of your life? I knew I had to, but I couldn’t. So I clung. I clung to him, silently begging him not to go with my tears. His soothing words only made things worse. I looked up at him, and it occurred to me that I would be happy just standing here, in the middle of a filth covered parking garage for my whole entire life, with him. Heck, I could be sitting on a bench in central park in below freezing weather with him, and would still love it. I knew I could stay with him for a long time, maybe even forever. I was feeling light headed, I didn’t want this to stop. Not Ever.
next one:
We stood only centimeters apart, me sopping wet in those faded blue shorts and black t. Clinging to your damp yellow shirt, feeling your solid stomache bear all my sorrowful punches, trying to make you stay. I grasp your arms, you pull me closer, whispering sweet nothings to me. This wasn’t fair. I finally found happiness, and it was being taken away so quickly. I buried my head into your chest crying harder nad harder with each breath. You told me not to worry, I was amazing and that you’ll be back soon. When I looked into your weak eyes, I could tell even you weren’t sure about that. Begging you, pleading, doing anything to make you stay. I needed you hera with me. I needed to feel your body next to mine, to feel your fingers wipe away my bangs curtaining my face. You said I shouldn’t cover my beauty, to show it off to the world and make them jealous. I wish you could see how much you mean to me, how much I rely on you each breathing day. Knowing you had to leave, I only held tighter. One last kiss on the lips , I could tell I wasn’t the only one who was going through pain. I wish you stayed. I wish you realized how much you mean to me. I wish you were here, with me. Not there, with them. My grip finally loosening, accepting reality, we stepped apart. Giving me a once over, you pulled me back into your arms. “Your making this so hard for me” you whined. Stop being selfish, stop thinking about yourself, stop living for you and no one else. I know you don’t do that. I know your not an ass hole. I know that YOU know, that deep down inside you, you have the ability to put the bottle down. Your worth so much, so much to me. Closing my eyes, inhaling your scent , i realized I was being tugged away. Tugged away from merely someoneI couldn’t breathe without. I don’t even know you. You don’t even know me. This shouldn’t be hard, youre nothing in my life. An apologetic look filled your eyes as you were being pushed into the van. This was it. This is how it ended. Another tragic ending to this pointless life.
Their words are nothing to me.
Trying as they might, they cant penetrate this forcefiled of love.
Blocking every jab, and dodging every put down.
I know you, and I know your kind
Two whole different comparisons.
I never thought itd be you I’d find
The rockstar, and the small town girl
Your far , its becoming a blur.
Please, don’t let this memory
Fade away.
Forever waiting , but never patient
Give me back my heart that I lent.
I can’t deal with this anymore
It’s so damn hard to hold on to a heart
When theres so much in between
I know its for the best
So make this my last request,
End the texts. End the calls
Cause with every word exchanged
My heart just falls.
Deeper, and deeper.
Flag the white bandana, I surrender
Bring me my vacation, I retire
These long nights and unhealthy feelings
Cant be right. I’m not your slave
And your not my sire. Make this easy
Help me let you go. rip the frays from
The line we sever when we say this is over
Why is it that whenever my subconscious thoughts become actions, my fingers end up holding the phone with your voice on the other end.
You know you don’t have my heart, and it’s not yours to mend.
But the care and strength you put into making me safe is enough to prove your own thoughts wrong.
Another day , another worry. A new problem a new song.
“the worst feeling in the world, is knowing your not safe and I can’t do anything about it’
You repeat to me, time after time.
If only you could choke on your own words that your killing me with.
Silly and special, I’m your little wonderball you sya
If only how true yo knew that was
A hard outside shell, seeming unbreakable
But ot simply shatter at the slightest hit
Candy coated , and bittersweet
Filled with little suprises.
Your words like a noose aroud my neck
Leave me on edge
The edge of what could be, and what has been
They slither up around me neck,
Slowly constricting my airways
Tightening, tightening then loosening
You give me air so I can breathe, but
The entire time im holding my breath.
In my head I know im stronger than this
But these words mean so much
Coming from you. Anyone else
It would be a mere snowball flocked my way,
You sent an avalanche , leaving me numb
To everything around me. Cut the rope,
Melt the snow, I can’t deal with this .
Holding my breath with each silent day,
Ive brought this all upon myself,
I poured the kerosene that burnt the bridges,
The again what kind of victim are you if you merely watched?
No fetching of water, no calling 911,..was this your intentions all along?
I’ll be silent, waitng for the outcome. Standing tall as an oak
But knowing my insides are rotting, one day , when the breeze is blowing,
Ill collapse into the green green grass.
How can I forget the the drunken I love yous? I LOVE YOU,
The 4 AM talks of bittersweet goodbye & wheat thins are gonna be nothing but a tear jerker now. Tell me how your voice changes so quickly, loving and endearing ot frightful and dream breaking. We met as two but left as one, now im missing my other half.
I’ll let you fly your way back to me, youll know where Ill be. Sitting here as usual waiting for the ever so faitfhful words of wisdom you seep through your mouth. You’ve taught me so much, you can just end this. You’ve said to much, you can just end this., You cant leave me here, broken shattered nad incomplete, baby your so over me and I have to even start on you. To tell you this would be absurd, do risk the chance o f rejection? Not a chance. So for now ill sing lonely lullabies to anyone waiting at my window, looking odwn on them they wont be bal to see the disappointment nt n ny face when it isntu r gleaming smile shooting right back at me. If I could do this over you know I would, id go o the top of every hill, only to tumble down into your arms.id
Send a smile my way, make me laugh day by day
Show me the ropes and teach me the course
I want this , but must not force
We’ve taken two steps forward and none back
With our feelings drying right out on a rack
Everythings, everythings open
We ran this race and finished in pace
Som uch time with lots to do
No point in rushing to be with you
If its love we can wait,
If if its love its time we can take
We know how we feel, and we know how to deal
Todeal with the distance, to deal with the emotions
Keep me laughing, and Ill keep you smiling,
Keep me missing and ill keep you wanting
This is so absurd, the way we act
For mere strangers we do not act
One day we’ll be together
Youll spin me round and round forever
We’ll lay in bed making silly faces
We’ll lay in bed with good graces
Our time will come, and when it does
Our hearts will be ready for all it brings
But for now we must wait,
For the time of our souls
To beg togheter again
For now we are only memories
Only far off dreams distanced by fences and trees
We’ll hop the fences and climb the trees
And spend the days swimming the rivers.
Our connection is something undeniable
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