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gym phobia
i've been going to the gym religiously since i was about 15. i'm 19 now. i've always loved it. once i got into spinning and tried all the classes like zumba i absolutely loved it!! i use to go about 5 times a week. as a matter of fact, when I don't go to the gym, I feel weird, because I'm already used to exercising so much. Lately, I have been experiencing chronic anxiety. I get all these irrational thoughts that something bad is going to happen to my mom if i'm not around her. or that if i leave the house unlocked someone is going to come in and kidnap my grandma. it's really weird. but, i've only been getting it lately. it never use to happen to me before. EVER. it's really irrational and i know it is. But, when that happens to me, my heart starts beating SUPER fast. it will go up to 90 to 110 beats per minute. SUPER SCARY. and then i start getting sad because I don't want it to happen to me and it only makes me more anxious. currently, i'm really trying to get over it and it's getting better. a lot of it has to do with the fact that i use to have an eating disorder and my body is experiencing post traumatic-stress. it also has to do with my menstrual cycle and they gave me some stuff to take for that. but anyway, i wasn't able to make it to the gym for like a week because of my anxiety. when i was there yesterday in my spinning class i had to leave about 15 minutes before the class was over because I got scared of my heart rate. i got the anxiety during the class. so while i exercise my heart rate was at 170 lets say and then it was going faster because i got anxious. i'm so scared to go back and i understand that i need to be ready but this isn't fair. i can't believe that this anxiety is getting in the way of the things i love the most. i know i have to go back to the gym but the thing is that if i push myself too hard i might disappoint myself, you know? i need to do this at a slow and steady pace... so what should i do? how should i go about this? maybe jog outside for like 2 days or a workout video?? i don't know.. i just need some ideas. thanks
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